This post will be about what people have been asking me, lately and I will answer them now here in this blog post!
What is your real name? My real name is Johanna Maria, and last names aren’t that important ;)
What is your opinion on a relationship and to make it work? My opinion on that are that you have to respect each other as humans and the others feelings, you have to understand the other person, and you really have to communicate with him/her as that are the keys of a successful relationship.
Do you love your boyfriend? Yes I do love my boyfriend Michael
Are you still together with your boyfriend? Yep and will be that forever
When is the right time to get married? I don’t know, probably when you are ready to celebrate the love you have with the person you are with.
Do you want kids? Yes I do want kids, one girl and one boy, and I do already have the names done, Nathaniel for the boy, and Jaana for the girl as I love those names
Have you ever been on a date? Yes I have actually been on one date in my whole life and it was with Michael I guess, we went to see Harry Potter, he payed the ticket and bought me popcorn a huge one and coke, I don’t think Michael likes our popcorn..
What languages do you speak ? I speak Finnish, Swedish and English, than I understand German a bit, danish and norwegian pretty good, and some estonia, I wonder if one sentence counts than I know a lot of languages xD
Have you ever cheated? Nope, I have never cheated on my boyfriend. I will never do that either.
What would you do if you get spoiled kids? I would slap their arses, I don’t like spoiled kids.
What is your biggest dream? My biggest dream is to become a lawyer but honest I think I would be more happy to become a mother, and to get married and celebrate love.
What do you think about Manchester United? I like them, if Liverpool aren’t in Champions leauge I would cheer on them, My family is pretty much a Mancester United fan, didn’t even know my dad was a fan of them until Michael was here :P
If you want me to answer more just ask me some !
Tuesday, 6 September 2011
The continue of the blogpost about jealousy that I wrote yesterday :D
Okay as you all know that follows my blog I wrote about jealousy yesterday, and today I will continue with that, as there are so many different jealousy, and things you can talk about when it comes to that subject, but this post has actually a mate on facebook given me the idea to write about, so thank you Lulu, and I hope you will like to read it.. Oh yeah just to clear somethings before I start, I don’t talk about anyone on facebook, or so the people I am talking about when it comes to jealousy is my real friends that lives here in Gothenburg, Sweden or close to Gothenburg!
Okay so now to the subject of my post, when you are in a relationship some people actually get the kick to make their partner jealous doesn’t matter if it is a girl or a boy, but they do try to make the other one jealous by doing things, like flirt open to others, write to others and don’t mention their partner, okay where do the line go between cheating and making the other feel insure about what the other person feels?
So we can start with facebook and one of my closest friends, she is not in a relationship or she is in real life but on facebook she isn’t she is single, as she wants the attention other guys are giving her, so she can use that to her boyfriend that she so supposed should love. The worst thing is that she don’t accept her boyfriends request so she tells him everthing they do, and say to her, and things like that.. Okay I do tell my boyfriends when guys bothers me, but that is not to make him jealous as she thinks, the differency between her and me is that I get so angry when they start to flirt with me, and I do tell them that I am inlove with my boyfriend, and that I am not avilible, but she do it complete different she start to talk about sex, and things like that, and yeah it gets better, as one of the boys that lived in our town went to see her, and she was like “Do I know you, no don’t think so, go to hell, here is my love of my life”
The thing is I have been there when she tells her boyfriend about the other guys flirting with her, and I see how hurt he gets as he knows she does the same thing, but what I don’t get it that he plays jealous as he knows that is what she wants, and then they just continue with this game, why not tell her the truth that you don’t care about the others and just care about your own relationship?!?!
Oh well guys aren’t that much better, they do the same things, as my mate does to his girlfriend when they are walking outside, oh well his girlfriend is pretty jealous when you start to think closely about their relationship. Okay lets start from the beggining with this they have been together for 5 or 6 years, but her boyfriend gets a bit flirty when he gets drunk trust me I know this for a fact, and I know how he is when he is sober too! Well now to the thing, when he is out with his girlfriend he tends to say oh she is hot, when he is with the other guys and the girls starts to boil up with the anger she feels, and the jealousy she has, one time she took me to the toilet to talk and she said in frustration I am trying my fucking best not to get jealous but do you see what XXXX is doing? Right infront of me, argh, help me Jo, I don’t want to feel like this. But in the end he gets what he want when they come home, a nice time in bed, and then he is saying to her according to herself, you have nothing to be jealous for even when I flirt and things like that, (we tend to play drunken games like spin the bottle and things like that here) I love you and I want to be with you no other girl.
But the thing is what actually chock me is that they stay in the relationship when they know that the other parter is making them jealous with purpose, if that happens to me I would leave even if I love the person, as I don’t like that kind of things. Everyone has probably tried to make their partner jealous sometime, lets see what did I do when I tried to make my partner jealous, I took on a mini skirt, a top and knee socks and went to a party, and the thing was that it didn’t work at all to make him jealous all he said was oh sweet I have a hot girlfriend that many people like?! Ufff that was a mistake to do from my side, but it is not healthy to try to make the other one jealous.
I would want the people that are trying to make their partner jealous, simply this. Ask your self if you love the person in question? If you say yes think again because why would you want to hurt the person you love, It is not healthy to be jealous, if you look at other guys/girls when you’re in a relationship are you truely inlove? Are you sure you want to have the person you want? Because you do clearly thinking of other person flirting with you, do you want them to kiss you, do other things? I mean where do the line go between cheating and hurting your partner? You really shouldn’t hurt the people you love you should make them the happiest person alive maybe do a nice surprise, write cute notes to him/her what you feel for them, what you want them to do when they come home from a hard day in work.
Oh well I hope that you have liked this post I really don’t know what more I can say about this without using the names of my friends and that would make me look bad, as they would come after me and kick my arse, haha, but you know you love me ;)
-Jo
Okay so now to the subject of my post, when you are in a relationship some people actually get the kick to make their partner jealous doesn’t matter if it is a girl or a boy, but they do try to make the other one jealous by doing things, like flirt open to others, write to others and don’t mention their partner, okay where do the line go between cheating and making the other feel insure about what the other person feels?
So we can start with facebook and one of my closest friends, she is not in a relationship or she is in real life but on facebook she isn’t she is single, as she wants the attention other guys are giving her, so she can use that to her boyfriend that she so supposed should love. The worst thing is that she don’t accept her boyfriends request so she tells him everthing they do, and say to her, and things like that.. Okay I do tell my boyfriends when guys bothers me, but that is not to make him jealous as she thinks, the differency between her and me is that I get so angry when they start to flirt with me, and I do tell them that I am inlove with my boyfriend, and that I am not avilible, but she do it complete different she start to talk about sex, and things like that, and yeah it gets better, as one of the boys that lived in our town went to see her, and she was like “Do I know you, no don’t think so, go to hell, here is my love of my life”
The thing is I have been there when she tells her boyfriend about the other guys flirting with her, and I see how hurt he gets as he knows she does the same thing, but what I don’t get it that he plays jealous as he knows that is what she wants, and then they just continue with this game, why not tell her the truth that you don’t care about the others and just care about your own relationship?!?!
Oh well guys aren’t that much better, they do the same things, as my mate does to his girlfriend when they are walking outside, oh well his girlfriend is pretty jealous when you start to think closely about their relationship. Okay lets start from the beggining with this they have been together for 5 or 6 years, but her boyfriend gets a bit flirty when he gets drunk trust me I know this for a fact, and I know how he is when he is sober too! Well now to the thing, when he is out with his girlfriend he tends to say oh she is hot, when he is with the other guys and the girls starts to boil up with the anger she feels, and the jealousy she has, one time she took me to the toilet to talk and she said in frustration I am trying my fucking best not to get jealous but do you see what XXXX is doing? Right infront of me, argh, help me Jo, I don’t want to feel like this. But in the end he gets what he want when they come home, a nice time in bed, and then he is saying to her according to herself, you have nothing to be jealous for even when I flirt and things like that, (we tend to play drunken games like spin the bottle and things like that here) I love you and I want to be with you no other girl.
But the thing is what actually chock me is that they stay in the relationship when they know that the other parter is making them jealous with purpose, if that happens to me I would leave even if I love the person, as I don’t like that kind of things. Everyone has probably tried to make their partner jealous sometime, lets see what did I do when I tried to make my partner jealous, I took on a mini skirt, a top and knee socks and went to a party, and the thing was that it didn’t work at all to make him jealous all he said was oh sweet I have a hot girlfriend that many people like?! Ufff that was a mistake to do from my side, but it is not healthy to try to make the other one jealous.
I would want the people that are trying to make their partner jealous, simply this. Ask your self if you love the person in question? If you say yes think again because why would you want to hurt the person you love, It is not healthy to be jealous, if you look at other guys/girls when you’re in a relationship are you truely inlove? Are you sure you want to have the person you want? Because you do clearly thinking of other person flirting with you, do you want them to kiss you, do other things? I mean where do the line go between cheating and hurting your partner? You really shouldn’t hurt the people you love you should make them the happiest person alive maybe do a nice surprise, write cute notes to him/her what you feel for them, what you want them to do when they come home from a hard day in work.
Oh well I hope that you have liked this post I really don’t know what more I can say about this without using the names of my friends and that would make me look bad, as they would come after me and kick my arse, haha, but you know you love me ;)
-Jo
Monday, 5 September 2011
jealousy is not a good thing...
This is a thing I want to talk about as I have seen I have seen it so much jealousy I see it everday in my mates world, I am jealous sometimes too, but not in the bad way though.
Okay lets start if you are together with one person, why would you think seriously that that person would take someone else, I mean he has choosen you, that must mean that he loves you and not other people.
My friends that have their loved one close to them, I am jealous of them, yeah I am jealous as they have them close and I don’t. I know for a fact I will love him forever and I wouuldn’t change a thing aas I really want him. But I am jealous of the people that doesn’t care about their loved ones and things like that.
I want to have my loved one close to me every day, for the rest of my life, I want to be able to kiss him when ever I want, and to hug him when ever I want. But I really need to wait for that, as I know he has something to do, but when he has done it I know we will have a wonderful life, and we will always be happy.
Now to the people I’ve seen act, they hit their boyfriends/girlfriend, because they don’t get as they want, and I mean it can be as silly thing, most of the time it is silly. They seem to not be living in the same place as I do, why the hell would they be so stupid and be jackarses to their loved ones. They say stupid things to their loved ones, things like this :
- Why don’t you love me? I have an answer to that, He loves you otherwise he wouldn’t be with you or would he? I really just hate people that, say that they don’t love the other person, I mean don’t you think your boyfriend gets hurt when you say things like that, I mean you are the love in his life but you are making everything to push him away, Please try to understand that he do love you, and you have nothing to be jealous of.
- Go and kiss her, you love her more than me? Oh yeah if you say that he might do it someday, as you are pushing him away, as you are so jealous. I would never say that to my loved one as I want him to kiss me forever, and never to kiss someone else
- Why the hell are you TALKING to her, it is your ex girlfriend? Now to my best question my mate is saying, I mean I wouldn’t like if my boyfriend is friends with his ex as he has had feelings for her in some part, but I wouldn’t freak out if he talks to her, I would just ask him if he had a nice talk as I can’t control who he chooses as a friend, and you should always have in mind that he is with you for some reason and not her, she is an ex someone he has kicked out.
- Do you really hate me so much that you, have to talk to others? I have seen this one really often and seen how the other person reacts, one almost felt hopeless as he tries to explain every day how much he loves her, but some how she don’t get that. Why shouldn’t your partner be able to speak with others? They are just friends, and he loves you, you really don’t have to be jealous of his friends, he don’t love them as he love you.
Now to the point I don’t see why you should be jealous, you are with the person and you should always remember that a person is with you ‘cause they love you and no one else. I know you can go nuts sometimes, but please please don’t get jealous of things, just keep remind yourself that you are the person that he/she loves you and no one else.
I am afraid that I will become one of them, oh yeah that is the worst part as I have seen, and trust me that is the worst thing ever, I hope that I will never become a jealous person, I don’t like people like that.. I hope that my partner will take me down to earth if I become like that, that is so scary but it will end up fine in the end I think.
Well my friends haven’t realized that Jealousy is the reason their relationships most of the times crashes as when you are that jealous you just kill it by yourself. I wish they would understand that they are the problem and not their partner, but sometimes you need a helping hand, and here it is with my blog post, I know they read this blog post, and I hope they realize what they are doing because I don’t want them to be sad, as I know they will end up crying. And I have to take care of them.
I will end this post with a quote from Jennifer James about Jealousy...
“ Jealousy is simply and clearyly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for ecidence to prove the point- that others will be preffered and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative – self – calue. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it’s mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ”
Okay lets start if you are together with one person, why would you think seriously that that person would take someone else, I mean he has choosen you, that must mean that he loves you and not other people.
My friends that have their loved one close to them, I am jealous of them, yeah I am jealous as they have them close and I don’t. I know for a fact I will love him forever and I wouuldn’t change a thing aas I really want him. But I am jealous of the people that doesn’t care about their loved ones and things like that.
I want to have my loved one close to me every day, for the rest of my life, I want to be able to kiss him when ever I want, and to hug him when ever I want. But I really need to wait for that, as I know he has something to do, but when he has done it I know we will have a wonderful life, and we will always be happy.
Now to the people I’ve seen act, they hit their boyfriends/girlfriend, because they don’t get as they want, and I mean it can be as silly thing, most of the time it is silly. They seem to not be living in the same place as I do, why the hell would they be so stupid and be jackarses to their loved ones. They say stupid things to their loved ones, things like this :
- Why don’t you love me? I have an answer to that, He loves you otherwise he wouldn’t be with you or would he? I really just hate people that, say that they don’t love the other person, I mean don’t you think your boyfriend gets hurt when you say things like that, I mean you are the love in his life but you are making everything to push him away, Please try to understand that he do love you, and you have nothing to be jealous of.
- Go and kiss her, you love her more than me? Oh yeah if you say that he might do it someday, as you are pushing him away, as you are so jealous. I would never say that to my loved one as I want him to kiss me forever, and never to kiss someone else
- Why the hell are you TALKING to her, it is your ex girlfriend? Now to my best question my mate is saying, I mean I wouldn’t like if my boyfriend is friends with his ex as he has had feelings for her in some part, but I wouldn’t freak out if he talks to her, I would just ask him if he had a nice talk as I can’t control who he chooses as a friend, and you should always have in mind that he is with you for some reason and not her, she is an ex someone he has kicked out.
- Do you really hate me so much that you, have to talk to others? I have seen this one really often and seen how the other person reacts, one almost felt hopeless as he tries to explain every day how much he loves her, but some how she don’t get that. Why shouldn’t your partner be able to speak with others? They are just friends, and he loves you, you really don’t have to be jealous of his friends, he don’t love them as he love you.
Now to the point I don’t see why you should be jealous, you are with the person and you should always remember that a person is with you ‘cause they love you and no one else. I know you can go nuts sometimes, but please please don’t get jealous of things, just keep remind yourself that you are the person that he/she loves you and no one else.
I am afraid that I will become one of them, oh yeah that is the worst part as I have seen, and trust me that is the worst thing ever, I hope that I will never become a jealous person, I don’t like people like that.. I hope that my partner will take me down to earth if I become like that, that is so scary but it will end up fine in the end I think.
Well my friends haven’t realized that Jealousy is the reason their relationships most of the times crashes as when you are that jealous you just kill it by yourself. I wish they would understand that they are the problem and not their partner, but sometimes you need a helping hand, and here it is with my blog post, I know they read this blog post, and I hope they realize what they are doing because I don’t want them to be sad, as I know they will end up crying. And I have to take care of them.
I will end this post with a quote from Jennifer James about Jealousy...
“ Jealousy is simply and clearyly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for ecidence to prove the point- that others will be preffered and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative – self – calue. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it’s mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ”
The thing you call facebook!
This post will be about the social network called Facebook, I have been there some years and have some good years and some bad years with it. I have met some great people there and some not so great people, there have been some drama, and more drama.. well where can I start..
Well it started when I probably sign up for facebook, as myself, well lets see, what can I say the first person that added me that wasn’t from sweden has to have been one girl from Spain called Maria, we became really good friends and we both liked Fernando Torres, thanks to him I met some other people like, Anna, whom I really care alot for, still today even if we don’t talk as much as we used to, and things like that, but Anna I would always kick the boys arse for you if you need it. Then I met a person from Argentina called Paula, I rememebr when I started to talk to her, it was kinda funny times, I know we aren’t so close as we once where and things has happen, but I do still like you as a person, and a friend.
Then we can say that I’ve met some wonderful boys too, as Vijay, Robert, Matt, Bryan and more people I can’t name here, but you all should know that you have made my life a bit better when I have been sad and that, you have always been there for me, no matter what, and I conider you as real friends that I want to met one day.
Than we have some girls that I do miss more as we don’t speak as much as we have done in the past, as Bilja, Branka, Doaa, Daca,Ira, Yupa, Marwa, and Lulu, and Indy you are the ones I can go to when I want to have an advice and need to talk about anything and nothing.
Then we have those that matters a little bit more to me as we are closer :
Katie one little girl from London, haha Katie is one of the persons I care alot for, she is like a baby sister for me, and Katie I am still on that mission to find you the perfect Daniel. The day you get a boyfriend or are thinking about dating you know I will be the person that have to say he is okay for you, I don’t want you to date a jackarse!
Bojana, I don’t really know where to start when it comes to our friendship we have had ours ups and downs, remember when we talked on skype and really talked out about what we felt we even might had some tears in that conversation, but eh you are the person I did tell, I miss you come back to me as a friend. You are the one I go to when I want to talk about my feelings, what I feel and things like that, you know those things you say, Jo, you are nuts, but I still love you. One day we will met and we will throw eggs on the bad people that walks on the street and laugh and have fun, we will go and see footballgames and even might live next to each other.
Than we have the person that I really can’t even write a short thing about, It is Michael he is my love, haha the thing that hits me is probably one of our first msn chats, a long time ago, it is when he says what do you look for in a guy, and I said he should be older, I don’t know how many times I have to eat that up, well he is the person I trust complete, he knows how I am when I am sad, happy, grumpy oh yeah, he has seen my worst sides too, I am still amazed he hasn’t run the other way, no but the thing is he has been the person that has helped me the most though the dramas that has been on facebook, as katie, bojana and his crazy cousin Georgie.
Michael is the person that I can go to and really say everything, when I think about it I have asked a lot of stupid questions to him as, why don’t neuner play, when Germany played their bronze game against Uruguay. All I know is that Michael is the person I want to have always in my life, and I will make sure he stays a long time too.
Thanks to Michael I have met Georgie, his cousin that has give me pretty good advice and been there when I have needed someone to talk to, even when I have been totally waisted, he always makes me laugh when he mess with me, but he has also helped me with lots of stuff.
Well the dramas has been so many that you can’t really write about them, but the thing is that all the drama has made me stronger as a person, and I know that there will be more drama, but I know one thing I will do when it comes, I will turn around and go the other way, as I want to be happy with my friends and loved one, and Facebook is pretty addictive, you always have to go in to it and see what has happen, and things like that, but there have been so many good things with it too.
I have met the best persons via facebook and I will always be greatful for that, and to end this post. I will end it with just this.
Thank you all for being my friend and to have made my life a bit brighter,
Xoxo, Jo
Well it started when I probably sign up for facebook, as myself, well lets see, what can I say the first person that added me that wasn’t from sweden has to have been one girl from Spain called Maria, we became really good friends and we both liked Fernando Torres, thanks to him I met some other people like, Anna, whom I really care alot for, still today even if we don’t talk as much as we used to, and things like that, but Anna I would always kick the boys arse for you if you need it. Then I met a person from Argentina called Paula, I rememebr when I started to talk to her, it was kinda funny times, I know we aren’t so close as we once where and things has happen, but I do still like you as a person, and a friend.
Then we can say that I’ve met some wonderful boys too, as Vijay, Robert, Matt, Bryan and more people I can’t name here, but you all should know that you have made my life a bit better when I have been sad and that, you have always been there for me, no matter what, and I conider you as real friends that I want to met one day.
Than we have some girls that I do miss more as we don’t speak as much as we have done in the past, as Bilja, Branka, Doaa, Daca,Ira, Yupa, Marwa, and Lulu, and Indy you are the ones I can go to when I want to have an advice and need to talk about anything and nothing.
Then we have those that matters a little bit more to me as we are closer :
Katie one little girl from London, haha Katie is one of the persons I care alot for, she is like a baby sister for me, and Katie I am still on that mission to find you the perfect Daniel. The day you get a boyfriend or are thinking about dating you know I will be the person that have to say he is okay for you, I don’t want you to date a jackarse!
Bojana, I don’t really know where to start when it comes to our friendship we have had ours ups and downs, remember when we talked on skype and really talked out about what we felt we even might had some tears in that conversation, but eh you are the person I did tell, I miss you come back to me as a friend. You are the one I go to when I want to talk about my feelings, what I feel and things like that, you know those things you say, Jo, you are nuts, but I still love you. One day we will met and we will throw eggs on the bad people that walks on the street and laugh and have fun, we will go and see footballgames and even might live next to each other.
Than we have the person that I really can’t even write a short thing about, It is Michael he is my love, haha the thing that hits me is probably one of our first msn chats, a long time ago, it is when he says what do you look for in a guy, and I said he should be older, I don’t know how many times I have to eat that up, well he is the person I trust complete, he knows how I am when I am sad, happy, grumpy oh yeah, he has seen my worst sides too, I am still amazed he hasn’t run the other way, no but the thing is he has been the person that has helped me the most though the dramas that has been on facebook, as katie, bojana and his crazy cousin Georgie.
Michael is the person that I can go to and really say everything, when I think about it I have asked a lot of stupid questions to him as, why don’t neuner play, when Germany played their bronze game against Uruguay. All I know is that Michael is the person I want to have always in my life, and I will make sure he stays a long time too.
Thanks to Michael I have met Georgie, his cousin that has give me pretty good advice and been there when I have needed someone to talk to, even when I have been totally waisted, he always makes me laugh when he mess with me, but he has also helped me with lots of stuff.
Well the dramas has been so many that you can’t really write about them, but the thing is that all the drama has made me stronger as a person, and I know that there will be more drama, but I know one thing I will do when it comes, I will turn around and go the other way, as I want to be happy with my friends and loved one, and Facebook is pretty addictive, you always have to go in to it and see what has happen, and things like that, but there have been so many good things with it too.
I have met the best persons via facebook and I will always be greatful for that, and to end this post. I will end it with just this.
Thank you all for being my friend and to have made my life a bit brighter,
Xoxo, Jo
Sunday, 4 September 2011
what I feel and about friends....
Oh well I have been alone for some days now, without anyone to talk to today, well I mean with voice not type, anyway I feel so alone, I can’t like talk about what bothers me, and that is any things today.
First of all I realize that it is really boring to be here at my parents house, I really like that you have nature close but the thing is I don’t want to go out alone as you might met a moose or other things that might attack you and yeah a moose has actually chased me to a tree once so I have respect for them these days.
The friends I have here don’t want to be with me, as they think I am well how do you say this mean, as I never care about their problems, like they have, more or less they always fight with people and if the truth shall come out I don’t want to be dragged in those problems as they will blame everything on me, some how they always do that.
How can you change your feelings, like when you feel alone? I don’t want to feel alone, but somehow I feel extremely alone, that is probably the worst feeling ever, I miss my parents, my unlce, I miss people, I really need to talk just talk about everything and nothing, I know that it is bad but hey, I am a person that loves to talk and I don’t know why but I will alwas love to talk.
What can I do, clean, have done it already, be with the cats that ignores me, oh I don’t want to make them be with me, but soon I will have to bug them so I can feel some love from someone, at least they don’t say that they hate me or make me feel alone they just don’t want to be with me, as everyone else in this place I am in.
The only person that wants to be with me lives a million kilometers away from me, and that is bad as I can’t go there to hang out >.<
Well that is how I feel today extremely alone, oh well I wanted to talk about something else so I will do that for a change and put a arse long post today just because I feel so damn alone so I don’t have anything else to do!
I want to talk about friends as this have made me think what a friend is..
We can start what I want in a friendship, that is honesty and for once I wish someone can just be honest with me, like not lie behind my back, talk trash about me, is that to much to ask for!
I want someone that actually can call me, and so I don’t have to be the one that calls everytime I have one mate that actually have been saying this to me, You never call me and when I ask her why should I be the one that always call? The answer I got from her was that it is to expensive to call me, oh hello it is as expensive for me to call you as it is for you to call me! You are just an idiot that actually are to greedy.
Than there is something that really bugs me and that is isn’t a friendship, where two people work so it should work? Oh it seems like I am the one that always works for so the friendship should work, I am so sick of the friends I have here, and somehow I know I will not get new ones as I am way to fucked up in my head, I can’t talk with “new” people I am shy, I don’t like to talk with people that I don’t know. I don’t know how to talk to people that I don’t know?
That is why it is so easy to talk to people that I have on fb, and msn as I don’t have to show how I look, or even better what I like, how I am as a person, the only people that knows how I am as a person is the people that have met me for real, that have seen how I am.
I mean when I am out, like in the clubs, I do miss if guys flirt with me, I don’t see what they do, and somehow those I am out with says how the hell can you miss that he flirt with you it is so obvious that he is doing that.. erm I don’t know it seems like I don’t work social as I am so shy, I don’t like things that other people do..
Lets see what do I like really, I like to draw when no one sees me doing it, I can’t draw when people sees me do it. I love to play games, and trust me I am a bad bad bad loser and I scream to much when I am about o lose, ask anyone of my mates. I like to swim, that makes me think more or less it is so good to be in the water. What more do I like to do I love to watch sports on telly, simpsons, family guy, South park and some other shows.
Anyway I think this is enough now I have moaned enough.
Well I hope my friends wakes up and see that I am a person that have feelings.
First of all I realize that it is really boring to be here at my parents house, I really like that you have nature close but the thing is I don’t want to go out alone as you might met a moose or other things that might attack you and yeah a moose has actually chased me to a tree once so I have respect for them these days.
The friends I have here don’t want to be with me, as they think I am well how do you say this mean, as I never care about their problems, like they have, more or less they always fight with people and if the truth shall come out I don’t want to be dragged in those problems as they will blame everything on me, some how they always do that.
How can you change your feelings, like when you feel alone? I don’t want to feel alone, but somehow I feel extremely alone, that is probably the worst feeling ever, I miss my parents, my unlce, I miss people, I really need to talk just talk about everything and nothing, I know that it is bad but hey, I am a person that loves to talk and I don’t know why but I will alwas love to talk.
What can I do, clean, have done it already, be with the cats that ignores me, oh I don’t want to make them be with me, but soon I will have to bug them so I can feel some love from someone, at least they don’t say that they hate me or make me feel alone they just don’t want to be with me, as everyone else in this place I am in.
The only person that wants to be with me lives a million kilometers away from me, and that is bad as I can’t go there to hang out >.<
Well that is how I feel today extremely alone, oh well I wanted to talk about something else so I will do that for a change and put a arse long post today just because I feel so damn alone so I don’t have anything else to do!
I want to talk about friends as this have made me think what a friend is..
We can start what I want in a friendship, that is honesty and for once I wish someone can just be honest with me, like not lie behind my back, talk trash about me, is that to much to ask for!
I want someone that actually can call me, and so I don’t have to be the one that calls everytime I have one mate that actually have been saying this to me, You never call me and when I ask her why should I be the one that always call? The answer I got from her was that it is to expensive to call me, oh hello it is as expensive for me to call you as it is for you to call me! You are just an idiot that actually are to greedy.
Than there is something that really bugs me and that is isn’t a friendship, where two people work so it should work? Oh it seems like I am the one that always works for so the friendship should work, I am so sick of the friends I have here, and somehow I know I will not get new ones as I am way to fucked up in my head, I can’t talk with “new” people I am shy, I don’t like to talk with people that I don’t know. I don’t know how to talk to people that I don’t know?
That is why it is so easy to talk to people that I have on fb, and msn as I don’t have to show how I look, or even better what I like, how I am as a person, the only people that knows how I am as a person is the people that have met me for real, that have seen how I am.
I mean when I am out, like in the clubs, I do miss if guys flirt with me, I don’t see what they do, and somehow those I am out with says how the hell can you miss that he flirt with you it is so obvious that he is doing that.. erm I don’t know it seems like I don’t work social as I am so shy, I don’t like things that other people do..
Lets see what do I like really, I like to draw when no one sees me doing it, I can’t draw when people sees me do it. I love to play games, and trust me I am a bad bad bad loser and I scream to much when I am about o lose, ask anyone of my mates. I like to swim, that makes me think more or less it is so good to be in the water. What more do I like to do I love to watch sports on telly, simpsons, family guy, South park and some other shows.
Anyway I think this is enough now I have moaned enough.
Well I hope my friends wakes up and see that I am a person that have feelings.
Saturday, 3 September 2011
Some boys .... ARGH!
What can I say about this I will write about something that really
bugs me more than anything and it is some boys, mostly from the muslims
counties.
Well I have nothing against the people that act normal and things like that
'cause there are idiots everywhere but this take the price.
I have many boys that are from a muslim country and they don't have any
respect at all I was on my facebook and one guy started to chat with me as always
he bugs me to death with stupid things but the thing is that he actually
took this chat to far this time..
It started like this
him: FU
Me: oh yeah sounds fun
him: I want you, you make me so H*rn* my C*ok is standing, you make things to me
Me: you are a pervert, leave me alone I have a bf
him: I want to have sex with you, you get $200 for one night
Me: please leave me alone, you are sick in the head
Him: why don't you like me
Me: I don't just like you, you are not my type at all
Him: beause I am not black
Me: nope not because of that
Him: take me why would you not love me
Me: I dont love anyone that isn't from north Europe
Him: You don't like muslims
Him: answer me you W*ore
Him: FU
him: come on. you are single
Me: ME single you must be joking right, have you even seen my relationship status
here on facebook, Ha, I am married to my boyfriend here so, you all perverts
shoud leave me alone, but hell now, you are offering me money for S*x and
trust me I am sick of you, please leave me alone and stop bothering me
Him: oh sorry I didn't know you where serious with your bf, please forgive me
Now to my biggest problem, why do they tend to write like that they think
they can get anyone that they want, but they always forget that the other person might
be taken. Or even worst they think they are so hot that every girl loves them, but they
are so wrong as they are never hot or that, well those that talks to me.
The thing is that I have never had problems with people that are from Europe at all or
Usa, some people from south america has been like this too, and asia and africa but
most people that do this is from a muslim country, I just wondering who that is like that?
How can a picture make you Ho**y? Why do you have to tell the girl that, they dont want you
when you are like that, the only thing they actually think is what is this pervert, probably
an really old dude sitting on the other side, and why would they try to make you theirs
one offered me twelve camels one time, oh yeah as I want that. All I will say that
I don't think a chatolic can be together with a muslim as we have so different
views on things..
bugs me more than anything and it is some boys, mostly from the muslims
counties.
Well I have nothing against the people that act normal and things like that
'cause there are idiots everywhere but this take the price.
I have many boys that are from a muslim country and they don't have any
respect at all I was on my facebook and one guy started to chat with me as always
he bugs me to death with stupid things but the thing is that he actually
took this chat to far this time..
It started like this
him: FU
Me: oh yeah sounds fun
him: I want you, you make me so H*rn* my C*ok is standing, you make things to me
Me: you are a pervert, leave me alone I have a bf
him: I want to have sex with you, you get $200 for one night
Me: please leave me alone, you are sick in the head
Him: why don't you like me
Me: I don't just like you, you are not my type at all
Him: beause I am not black
Me: nope not because of that
Him: take me why would you not love me
Me: I dont love anyone that isn't from north Europe
Him: You don't like muslims
Him: answer me you W*ore
Him: FU
him: come on. you are single
Me: ME single you must be joking right, have you even seen my relationship status
here on facebook, Ha, I am married to my boyfriend here so, you all perverts
shoud leave me alone, but hell now, you are offering me money for S*x and
trust me I am sick of you, please leave me alone and stop bothering me
Him: oh sorry I didn't know you where serious with your bf, please forgive me
Now to my biggest problem, why do they tend to write like that they think
they can get anyone that they want, but they always forget that the other person might
be taken. Or even worst they think they are so hot that every girl loves them, but they
are so wrong as they are never hot or that, well those that talks to me.
The thing is that I have never had problems with people that are from Europe at all or
Usa, some people from south america has been like this too, and asia and africa but
most people that do this is from a muslim country, I just wondering who that is like that?
How can a picture make you Ho**y? Why do you have to tell the girl that, they dont want you
when you are like that, the only thing they actually think is what is this pervert, probably
an really old dude sitting on the other side, and why would they try to make you theirs
one offered me twelve camels one time, oh yeah as I want that. All I will say that
I don't think a chatolic can be together with a muslim as we have so different
views on things..
Friday, 2 September 2011
a request to write about feelings when they change
My friend Malin has really choose a hard subject to talk about that is what you should tell your boyfriend/girlfriend when your feelings has changed.
Okay this is the strangest subject to talk about really because me, as a person would really go to my boyfriend and tell him that my feelings has changed and then work it from there. as it can be bad and it can be a good thing.
Well the thing is that when you are in a relationship your feelings change during the time you are together sometimes they just stop and you realize that you are better as friends, but the thing is that when you end a relationship you tend not to be friends anymore and that is so sad. I wish I could be friend with my exboyfriend sometimes yeah I do I will not lie about it, as I do miss his friendship. I realize way to late that we shouldn't have been together, and today we aren't friends, and that hurts in some strange way, as we where best friends. but we can't be friends as he has feelings for me, and I have not those feelings for him.
But when the feelings change to the better you tend to start to look in to the future and slowly start to plan your life with him, but it is way more scary to tell those feelings for your loved one, as he/she might not feel the same. It is always harder to talk about things that might hurt you in the end, but I would slowly talk about it like what do you want in the future, somehow you get a view of what the other person feels for the future.
Than we have the friendship between two friends, do the feelings change in there too, yeah they do that, and sometimes you realize way to late that you don't need the person, and sometimes you realize that you need a person you have kicked out from your life and than you don't know what to do as you can't just call that person and say hello I miss you.
I have some friends that blackmails me to do things but that will end now, and the person that blackmails me to do this oh well my feelings for you is just go to hell here you have my oppinion on feelings that change in a realtionship, but you never thought that I would think about friends either.. Oh well all I will say is thank you for the friendship we have had, and hope you will have fun and happiness in the future because our path is going different ways.
I will end this post with this :
You got the smile, I'll pray to god every day, that you keep that smile. Yeah, you are my dream, There's not a thing I won't do, I'll give my life up for you, 'Cause you are my dream, And baby, everything that I have is yours, You will never go cold or hungry, I'll be there when you're insure, Let you know that you're always lovely, boy, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now, One day when the sky is fallin', I'll be standing next to you....
Okay this is the strangest subject to talk about really because me, as a person would really go to my boyfriend and tell him that my feelings has changed and then work it from there. as it can be bad and it can be a good thing.
Well the thing is that when you are in a relationship your feelings change during the time you are together sometimes they just stop and you realize that you are better as friends, but the thing is that when you end a relationship you tend not to be friends anymore and that is so sad. I wish I could be friend with my exboyfriend sometimes yeah I do I will not lie about it, as I do miss his friendship. I realize way to late that we shouldn't have been together, and today we aren't friends, and that hurts in some strange way, as we where best friends. but we can't be friends as he has feelings for me, and I have not those feelings for him.
But when the feelings change to the better you tend to start to look in to the future and slowly start to plan your life with him, but it is way more scary to tell those feelings for your loved one, as he/she might not feel the same. It is always harder to talk about things that might hurt you in the end, but I would slowly talk about it like what do you want in the future, somehow you get a view of what the other person feels for the future.
Than we have the friendship between two friends, do the feelings change in there too, yeah they do that, and sometimes you realize way to late that you don't need the person, and sometimes you realize that you need a person you have kicked out from your life and than you don't know what to do as you can't just call that person and say hello I miss you.
I have some friends that blackmails me to do things but that will end now, and the person that blackmails me to do this oh well my feelings for you is just go to hell here you have my oppinion on feelings that change in a realtionship, but you never thought that I would think about friends either.. Oh well all I will say is thank you for the friendship we have had, and hope you will have fun and happiness in the future because our path is going different ways.
I will end this post with this :
You got the smile, I'll pray to god every day, that you keep that smile. Yeah, you are my dream, There's not a thing I won't do, I'll give my life up for you, 'Cause you are my dream, And baby, everything that I have is yours, You will never go cold or hungry, I'll be there when you're insure, Let you know that you're always lovely, boy, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now, One day when the sky is fallin', I'll be standing next to you....
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