The typical girl

I guess you can count me there, I like shopping, and mostly I love shoes, I am going on a diet, going to start to run again, but I don't know when just..

Anyway I am going to talk about how I typical girl is well most of us are the same we like the same things, and things like that, even if we are complete different in things. Well I am not saying that every girl is like this, as they aren't but most are like this. Well I will talk about myself and my girl mates, and trust me no one is safe really..

Let me start with one thing that girls like to do, no matter what they say they like to trash talk other people, somehow I think without joking that everyone is doing it still even if you are a grown up, but the worst part is that we do it lots when we are around 13-18, no idea why but we do. The girl that says that they haven't talked trash lies pretty much. I know I have done it, but I tend to think close to who I talk the trash too, I still do it on some things, I know I am ashamed of it, but I think every girl has that built in the brain.

So If you are reading this and thinking oh shite I have done that, don't worry so have I, but probably not about you, or it can have been about you, as I don't know who is reading my blog.

Well the other thing a girl tend to do, is that they talk about boys to mates, and that is not a good thing, as we keep going and going, I know this when we fall in love everything stops to work in our brain, and we tend to keep talking about that person for hours. Oh shite poor my mates when I start to miss Michael I tend to call them to talk to them and all I can hear them say is Johanna, can you please SHUT UP. But they never tell me that as they let me talk about him, as they know how happy I am.. Well I don't get how you really can become like this, I know when my mates start to talk about her love all I feel is oh no, it will go on for hours. But in the end I am the same :D

A girl loves/likes to shop, that is a thing you really can see when you are outside who is always out shopping oh yeah it is girls. How many lads really do shop, I feel sorry for Michael he has to carry lots of bags when I really start to shop, but he is so sweet so he always say Johanna you really don't need more shoes, haha sorry my love I bought new shoes yesterday, you weren't here to stop me. A girl loves either shoes or bags, no joke that is the worst thing for a girl.. Mine is shoes, I love shoes, that is the best thing in the world after Michael, he is the best thing in this world I would give up everything for just him.

Well what more can I say about a girl, they really do things that you would be chocked to hear about, if they want something they start with the ugly games, and that is to trash talk a girl, to everyone and they tend to do it strategy, I know I have been that girl everyone hated in school, and it was mostly the girls that hated me, maybe 'cause I didn't like the same things as they did. I liked universe, swimming, backstreet boys ( I know more did like them too), being in the woods, train, and now I can't do that, I miss the training, I want to be the old Johanna in that part that trained so much that she didn't have time for shopping, talking with the other girl mates I have. As they are always talking shite about each other, so I know when I am not there they talk bad things about me but I don't give a shite.

The only thing that really bugs me with being a girl is that if you are blond as I am, that guys looks at you as you would be a whore, I mean why would blonds always want to shag and things like that, I have seen as much brunettes being sluts as I have seen blonds, I am so sick of that! I mean I love that people always makes that conclusion when you are a blond, anyone else that have that same trouble?

All I mean those girls that sleeps around really makes girls look like trash I hope that they stop with that, I mean if you are in a serious relationship you can make love, but not with 10 different guys every week >.< uff why would you want to sleep with so many?

Now to the other thing, every girl dream about it is the perfect family and wedding, and when they start to date, they serious think about that, without knowing about it.

Now to the thing boys should stand up and say no to is when they girl makes them do anything they want. Please stand up for yourself, if you let the girl control you complete you will be destroyed in the end. put down the foot and tell your woman what you want to do

You know you love me...

xoxo

-Jooooooooooooooooooooo

Love, wedding, missing, and things people want to know hopefully

I have been thinking lots about love, what is love, is it good or is it bad? Is it good to be unhappy in love? Things like that and even wedding things.

So lets me start to define love from my point of view, this is what I feel and no one else, maybe I should make clear of that, as some people has said I just feel like others, like big thinkers like Aristotle’s, Plato and even Socrates. Well now to this blond chick that has her own thoughts and things like that, even if I do read lots from great thinkers, but that doesn’t matter that I do agree with them.

My point of love is really strange and really easy according to me, you should not tell I love you if you don’t love the person, I mean even if the other person tells you I love you, doesn’t have to be that you love the other person, right? Not in the same way that he/she loves you! I am proud of myself I have actually never over used I love you to a person, and right now I feel proud of me. There has only been one person I truly have meant I love you to and that is Michael. I don’t know but it has taken me ages to realise what love is about, and what I think love is about. It has taken me over 26 years to figure out what it is about.

Love is something you share with another person that feels the same to you, even if you have a bad day, when you are sad, the person that you love and share this with, you should always be able to talk about anything and everything, with him/her, and know that he will not judge you. Even if you are sad this person can make you smile like a little goof, the little goof you never thought you could become, the person that actually feels like a helpless kid, that everyone can read. You get shy without knowing why. That is what love is about, for me, when you feel absolutely lost, right and so complete in the same time, I know a weird point of view. But hey it is me we are talking about!

The thing is that I think that both kinds of loves is a good thing, the unhappy love that is not responded makes you dream about things you might don’t dream when you are happy in love. Sometimes you tend to dream more happy thoughts when you are unhappy, as you are trying to delude yourself that the other person is in love with you, but you really know deep down that he/she isn’t in love with you. I am not here to judge anyone as I think unhappy love is a good thing, but it is really painful when you realize the truth and get sad, but somehow you know what you want in a relationship in the true love that you are looking for, yeah we are humans everyone and we all are looking for the perfect one. When you have the happy love you start to think about things that you never have thought about before, like family and kids, and even weddings, even thought girls tend to dream about their dream wedding since they have been kid. Well at least I have dreamed about my dream wedding and somehow I know I will get it, even if I have to make some changes, but somehow people don’t get how it feels when they are trying (even if it is a joke) to make you change your plan. For me it feels like they don’t give a shite of my feelings, the worst part is that it actually hurts lots, I have thought about how I want my wedding a long time, and honest if people say that I want another thing they actually PUSH me far away from my loved one, as he get to hear all my mood swings thanks to all of you who try to make a so Good joke as you define it!

My wedding shall be a celebration of love, between me and my husband to be, and I will not start to plan before I’m engaged, as right now it just feel so long time away, I know I will get married but when I do get married I know it will be the best day of my life. Even if you all don’t believe in me when I say this I want my other half to be as involved as I am in that, I want to hear what he wants, the only thing I know is that I want roses in my bouquet and I hope that my other half want that, but the thing is that I still dream about a damn romantic wedding, and it shall be perfect. Oh well I hope it will be just perfect.

The thing is that when you have figure out what love is about you really learn that some things aren’t that important, like how you want everything to be complete right and complete like you want it, you learn that you have to make compromises as the other half has his/her views, and that is the hardest thing to do according to me. Just thinking about when I will move in with my other half as I know how my flat is now, kinda girly or well pretty much everything is from IKEA and I love my Malm serie, but what if he don’t love it? What if he want a new bed? A new sofa? A new table? All I know is that I have to let him put his things here too as it will be his home too.

The other thing is why should I try to make everything perfect when they never tend to be perfect? I want things to be easy, no fucking drama, no persons that makes me in a bad mood, I want to smile every single day, but that is impossible when I think about things, what if I get married in English, my dad doesn’t even understand English, he don’t like to fly, he is a typical finnish person, that only knows finnish, Swedish and German. I would love to have my granddad on my wedding, but that will not happen as he is in heaven looking down on me, I know people don’t get when I say this, I would love my nan’s to be there but if they is gonna come, I have to get married close to them, as one is really bad condition she can’t fly, or sit in a car for a long time, my other nan is over 90 years old, to be honest I know that my wish can’t come true, as they will not be on my wedding. All I want is for people to stop nagging how my wedding is going to be or where it is going to be, as it only brings me to bad mood, as I know I can’t get people I want there. I will only invite REAL friends, family and I hope that my other half wants that and honest why would I want to have any other there?

I will not go on anymore, I will end this with a tear for all those that I actually miss more than I can say, I love my grandpa, I love my nan’s but the missing part of granpa is the worst, it has gone so long time, but it feels like it was yesterday he was there hugging me, giving me advice..

-Johanna

Some Cartoons I miss!

Today I will talk about what I really miss on telly, I mean the good shows that you watched when you where younger, and how they have changed so much the children’s channels.

The show that I loved when I was younger was ducktales for you who don’t know what that show are about I will tell you shortly, it is when Donald leaves his great-nephews to Scrooge McDuck when he joins the navy. I know it is silly but I really loved this show when I was younger and I still love it. Donald is my favorite of all disney’s he is just amazing.

Than we have the other things I loved when I was younger chip and dale rescuers rangers, it is when chip and dale saves the world from an evil cat. You really miss the old good shows.
The family Addams, The flintstones, Disney’s adventures of the Gummi Bears, Inspector Gadget,TMNT, Dexter’ Laboratory, Scooby Doo, The Mask, Tom and Jerry the old ones, Darwin duck the thing is that they don’t show them anymore. Well I am going to buy them on dvd’s or something, I hope that I can get them.
Donald duck is the best.

Well when you were a kid on the 90’s you really miss the good cartoons that they showed, but today they don’t show them as it is to violence.
Today you have the Simpsons, South Park, Family guy, and some other shows. But they aren’t for kids really.

I don’t get it why they had to make tom and jerry knew as they are to violence, I don’t get it what is the show about really it is when jerry is beating tom, in a funny way, and trust me the cartoons haven’t hurt me, and they haven’t hurt other people either.
Anyway I want to watch Team America, I totally love them.

The only show that I watch today is Scooby doo, and that is because Matilda loves that show, I really like that, it is good that they haven’t taken away that show and I hope that they will not take away it.

Do you think that cartoons are violence?

I will end this with YABBADABBADOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Autumn talk

The autumn is here in Gothenburg, it starting to get cold, and that sucks.

The thing is that I love the winter, as it get a bit whiter, not like we have now in the autumn, when it start to get dark, and it is to dark, and you feel depressed. The only thing that is good with the autumn is when leafs get yellow, than red but then everything fall to the ground and you don’t have anything to see.

I don’t get why so many people get depressed now, but I can see why, as it gets dark, everything gets colder. Tonight it was pretty cold outside as it was stars and no clouds outside, and the thing is that it will be so cold soon. What can you wear this autumn, anyone that has any ideas what will be in and what will be out?

Well this autumn will really suck, I feel that it is cold already, how will the winter be? Colder than last year? Or warmer? I really want to know so I can buy my cloths already, I really need to clean my winter jacket, I am not prepared to throw it away yet, more or less because it is a Fillipa K, cost me way too much when I bought it, Well when I start to think, I buy most of my things on H&M but, I do buy Fillipa K and J.Lindeberg too, I really don’t know how screwed up I am.

I do like brands, but more or less I have started to buy more Swedish brands, well the thing is that I want to buy new trainers, should I buy Nike, Reebok or Adidas or even more go and buy something else?

Anyway I might start to run this autumn, well first I really have to buy running shoes, why are they so damn expensive, I hope that I can find some cheap shoes so I can start running, but then my other thought is where can I buy them cheap, where will I get good ones, who is the person that will run with me, as I need someone doing it with me. But the thing is that no one wants to start as I want, they are always so negative when it comes to that.
I can always run myself but what if something happen like I break my leg, twist it or anything else? Oh well I need to start to do something, anyone that has any good idea what you can train, when you don’t want to go to the gym? I has been in the gym once before and if I can be honest I didn’t like it so much as, everyone looks at you and look what you are wearing, and since when do you have to have MAKE UP when you train?

I think the autumn will be cold, and I really need to start thinking what I want to do with this autumn this year.
I hope I get the inspiration to make my mates start running with me!

This post is not for people under 18

This post is for people over 18, and if you are under I would like that you don't continue to read as it contains some sexual content..

Well I will speak about sex today, my point of view of that subject, what I really think about it, and what I regret and things like that!

Well lets start with the thing that I actually don't like when it comes to SEX that everyone says that it is a taboo subject to talk about, well I can talk with my friends about it as we are pretty much open with it, doesn't matter if it is a lad, girl or if you are straight or homosexual we speak about it and say what we think, and give each other advice and things like that.

Well the thing is that I think that people start to have sex to early I remember when I saw two people have sex for the first time, and yeah it was two in my class, and we where not in grade one, but we played mummy, daddy and kids, like you had a family game, well I do remember the thing so clearly... they went to a room while our teacher was somewhere else as we had free time, and it rained outside, anyway the mum and the dad went to the room and they had sex, and they where 6 years old, okay that is way to young to have sex and have to see it, I was the youngest person in that room, poor my eyes, but I still think it is way to early to have sex when you are under 16 as you are a kid under that, well more or less..

The thing is that many girls don't have period pills so they get knocked up, and than they decide to keep that as a secret that they are pregnant and it ends up that they have a kid before 15, sad but true.

Anyway back to track, I know this is hard to talk about, but I do regret things I have done when it comes to sex, as I have been drinking and have had one night stand one time, damn I don't even remember the name of the dude, or do I ? hmm, well people always say that I am a whore or a slut, but to be that in my eye you have to have sex with lots of people I am proud to say that I have only had it with 4 people, and two of them I truly loved, and really care about, than I had a threesome with my ex and his best buddy, not the best and brightest idea I have had, but I did it, and today I wish I never had done it, but the thing is that I am happy that I was with Jonas, and I had him at the time, when everyone else said what they did I kept my mouth closed, I really have to say that some people I know have had sex with over 30 people in one year..

Well how many do use toys in bed, I would guess that many people do it, to spice up their love life, but you have to be open to your partner and say everything you feel about it, I mean if your partner don't like it you can't be grumpy and say I love it I want to do it now.

Sex is actually something you share with the other person, it is a connection you have, you have the foreplay where you can have the licking, and give a blowjob to make it more fun, but Eh, don't forget the kissing, and the hugs, it is as important as the blowjob and the licking, to make both in the right mood to have a nice sex, well then you have the sex that isn't that special if you have it with someone you don't love, but if you have it with someone you love and you feel like you have become one, where you feel that the time stops, then hopefully you get the biggest reward of all the ORGASM.

Now to the thing that bugs me, well guys can't really fake their orgasm as a girl can, as the guy cums, but how many girls do fake their orgasm I would say 96 % of them do it to make the lad happy. Why do they believe us when we fake it? why can't they just tell that we are faking it? I mean we do have the things that happens in the body when we are about to cum, I think we pretty much work the same every girl with those things.. but why lie? that actually destroy more for yourself than for your partner, but what if he finds out in the end that you have lied? Do you think he will believe you when you actually do have one?

Than to the other thing, if the guy have a to small Di*k you don't feel anything but if it is to bug it is just painful, you should find a guy that has a perfect co*k for you.

Well I think I should end here, and I might continue with this some other time, as it is so much to talk about when it comes to the subject Sex..

Well to end this I would give some tips to spice up the love life

- 69 that is a good oral sex position

- the classic missionary works always

- when the girl rides...

well this is enough for now!

I hope you have enjoyed reading this =D

I have been thinking who many do you really know that you are friends with, and things like that? I mean do I really know my friends, No I don't not fully..

Well lets start with who I truly know, I think I know Michael best, and that is probably because we started off as friends from the begging, that is probably why we have it so good now, as we spoke about anything before and we still do, he knows things about me that no one else knows more than my family, and somethings they don't know.

The thing is that I don't know my friends complete everyone is closing themselves as they don't want to talk about things, or private stuff, I totally get them as you don't want to share every single moment of your life. I don't want to do that either.

Than you have those you thought you knew and they turn out being the bitches and who*es that only trash talk you and pretend to be your friend, they tell you things, to get to know things about you so they can trash talk you. Well I will take an example...

Lets say you tell this person that you like Nate, and she likes him too, then she says something to Nate, like a totally lie about you. I don't know what kind of lie, but I guess something like this : Johanna, she is a player, and she just want you to like her so she can show everyone that she can win you, and she isn't worthy you, you aren't worthy being hurt, but I love you, and I am way better than you.

The things is that when they lie they really make you in bad days, but the truth is always coming out in the end, and somehow you see who is your real friend and not a friend.

I don't get people that pretends to be your friend, 'cause if they hate you why are they so obsessed being your friend? Is it 'cause they want to come close to a boy they like that you know, or even worse your brother/sister, or anything else. pfft to people like that! hate them with passion.

But I wish my real friends could open up themselves so you know who you will have for the rest of your life.

Anyway I will always have my family, and my husband I hope =)

XOXO JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

when you will buy a house!

What Can I write about today, I have been thinking about is so close and they only thing I have come up with is when you will buy a house

Well this will be what I think is most important when you buy a house, So I guess Michael need to tell me what he want as it is always two people that buy a home =]

Well the first thing is the location, where do we all want to have the location, I would love to have ocean view but as true as sad this is it is really expensive to have a house with ocean view. Well I wouldn't mind to have a lake or a river view either but the house is so expensive when you really want that view. But I have been thinking that I would love to have a view with fields and than you see mountains in the background, that view would be so awesome in the winter, and summer, but the thing is that the location is important thing when you want to buy a house. I asked my mum where she wants to have it near the ocean as she loves to swim in the ocean. My dad is really idiot when you ask him where do you want to buy a house if you think about the location, SPAIN is the only answer I got from him. Everyone want to have the location in different space, I guess me and my mum would have pretty much the same thoughts.

Well when you have thought about the location you need to start thinking where you want to live, like what town, village, and what you want the village to have, the most important thing is that I have IKEA close so I can buy lots of stuff Cheap, and to have a cheaper food store as food cost so much here, and maybe some clothes stores, and a pub, and a school to my kids, but I don't want to live in a city as I like countryside more, in some ways, don't get me wrong I love city too as you have everything you need there, but when I get kids I want them to live in the countryside, so they can go bare foot and have a garden that is nice to play. Well one thing I really need where I live is a swimming hall as I like to swim!

Well when you have been thinking about this with the other one you are buying with, you have to start thinking about the house, how you want the house to look, and how it should be.

So lets see what I want to have, I want a big kitchen as I want a kitchen island there, so you can eat breakfast there, but I also want a small table so you can eat lunch there and dinner, but than I want a dinner room so you can have guest there, so you don't have to eat in the kitchen.

Then I want a living room, that is not to small and not to big, but you should get a sofa there I want this one : http://www.ikea.com/se/sv/catalog/products/20198972 so you all can see what I want. well the thing is that I want to have more thing in the living room, so it can't be to small..

than I want a guest WC, and a family WC, and mostly one own WC with a shower, to the master bedroom =]

Well than we should think about the rooms, I want to have a working room, 3 bedroom and there will one be a guest room, and than a master bedroom where me and Michael will sleep, oh yeah I need to think what I want in the house. what more do I want in the house, a hallway. Than I want to have a porch where you can sit in the summer, and enjoy the summer days.

I do want a garden but not to many flowers as I am not good with them, I always kill them.. Anyway I would love to have a greenhouse where you can grow things, that you later on will eat, I know that this will cost a lot to get as it always expensive to buy a house.

So if I would guess how much this will cost me in the future it would be around £500 000 -->

I feel sorry for myself as it seems like I will never get what I dream about, a big house, with a ocean view, or field with mountain view..

But I will say as you as many people say to me, Keep dreaming and it might come true, you never know.

Happy and unhappy love!

Today I feel for talking about Happy and Unhappy love, I know it is a hard subject to talk about as we all have felt it sometime in our life

So now to the thing we all have felt in our life unhappy love, I think everyone have felt this some time in their life, I know I have felt it and it was hard and painful.

So why do we fall in love with people that we don't get the love back from? I remember when I fall in love with my best friends brother, that was so painful I saw him every single day, in school, when I was home, and when I was there. When I think about it he knew that I loved him, but somehow he tend to use the part as he knew I loved him, he said can you do this for me, and things like that, and I was so blind that I never saw that he didn't like me in that way, well my friend his sister always said he liked me as much as I liked him, but she lied as she wanted me to be happy.

So how is it that we become blind when it comes to love it doesn't matter if it is happy or unhappy love as you get blinded, by the guy you like. That is so painful when you actually are so blind that you don't see how much the other person truly likes you, or feel. How is it that we can miss that someone don't like us the way we like them, and why don't our friends tell us the truth about the love we have. I hope that my friends always tell me the truth, as one of them has said you are blind when it comes to your boyfriend, I know you love him, but do he love you in the same way. So now to the thing, because some people are unhappy in love they try to make you so unsure if you are happy in love, and they will go to really bad methods.

The thing is why would a guy use the girl that is unhappy in love? I know that girls do it too I will not deny it, we all do it. But the thing is boys tend to use girl in bad ways and here is some things that they use a girl, been me or been my friends..

- They have sex with the girl just because they know she likes him and want to be close to him, then when they have got what they want, they just leave the girl with a thank you!?! why the hell would you say thank you after you have had sex, the girls get sad and than she promise her self that she never will love him again, but that we all know that she does.

- They make the girl get things, go to the store, etc I know plenty and myself that you do this when they ask, they have the magic eyes to make you do everything. The magic smile as I say.

-They make sure that they kiss others in front of you and make you sad!

- They talk about the girl they like loud, and tell you how wonderful she is when you want to hear him speak those things about you, and then they end you are a good body, and they know you love them. for fuck sake don't speak about the person you love to someone that loves you.


Well now to the happy love that everyone will feel sometime in their life!

That is wonderful when you have someone that is as crazy in you as you are in them. Mostly that they are willing to do anything for you, to hug you when ever you need it. They ask you how you are and things like that. But mostly they take care of you. The thing is that they are willing to do anything for you when ever you need the person. They surprise you with lovely messages like a small I love you, be sexy for tonight.. we have a date, xoxo or something that makes you smile, but the thing is that you are as blind here as you are in the unhappy love. I don't get how we girls can become so blind, do guys get so blind to that they don't think about anything else than the person that they love?

Well I think that when you speak about love you can't really just put everything in to one post as there are so many love you have in your life as friendship, Partner, Sports, Hobbies and things like that. But there is one thing that we all will love unconditionally even if you are Girl or a lad, that is the love you will have for your children there is a love that I can't speak about yet as I am not a mother, but I know that love is different as I have just have to look at my parents and how much they love me without telling me I love you..

- Jo

Well how it is to be me, and what is right...

Why is it so hard to get who the person Johanna is?

I mean people always are that idiot and say one thing and other thing, So why not clear some questions out what is true and what isn't true!


Than we can start with the thing that really is so funny, there is a rumor that I stole my boyfriend from a girl, that is not true at all.. The truth is that we fall in love with each other and decided to give "us" a chance so we did that, and that is the truth, no lies at all, we both decided to have a relationship as we love each other, and that has been one of the best things I have decided.

That I have been in fights on facebook, this is true, I have been in many fights on facebook, but the thing is that I don't care about them as I mostly don't know the persons in real life, I know them via facebook, some I am good friends with today, and hope that we will be that for a long time, but some are just out of my life and I want that too.

That I don't have blond hair, I do have blond hair, I am born with it but the thing is that I have been colour my hair for so long time, that I never will get back that blond colour I had in the begging.

That I am planing to go back to university, Yes I am planing to go back but not yet as I need someone to live with me to afford the flat I have, and the thing is I want to read there, so why not think really close so you get the right thing.

That I hate kids, I don't hate kids I actually like them lots and want my own sometime in the future..

I don't like when people lies about me, as they don't know me, really and because of that they say things that isn't true, as I have been stealing friends, and boyfriends, I have been in a relationship for one year (over) and friends you can't make someone be your friend you have to work for a friendship to work, I mean come on, how the hell can I have been stealing your friends if I get friends with them and talk to them. If people keep saying that they would be fucked up in the end, as they try to control someone else.

Anyway I will not babble more...

-Jo

Nothing Else matters

Okay this post will be inspired by one song, Nothing else matters.

The song starts with this: So close no matter how far, Couldn’t be much more from the heart, Forever trust in who we are, and nothing else matters. Now to the point I think I finally get the lyrics, finally I say I mean even if we are so far away, you are always close to my heart, as I love you, as I need you beside me. You always have to trust in who you are, and the other person that they have you in the same place as you have them, in your heart, and nothing really matters as you are the person that the person have close to your heart.. or at least that is how I see that part of that song and the song goes on with this on the next part.

Never opened myselrf this way, Life is ours, we live it our way, All these words I don’t just say, and nothing else matters.. If I look close to this part of the song I get it so well. I have never open myself to anyone except one person, and he do know everything about me, even my dark sides, and my light sides, my happy sides, my sad sides. Life is something you contrpl and you live it as you want and no one can tell you how to live it or how to open yourself, or even more no one can tell you how you want to show the love you have with the person you love, The words I say I actually mean every single one of them, I don’t care when people say that I am nuts, ‘cause I am telling you that I want to have you in my life forever, to have a family with you. The next part is

Trust I seek and I find in you, Ever day for us something new, Open mind for a different view, and nothing else matter, the thing is you can’t have a relationship if you don’t seek the trust in the other person, in the other part of your own heart, in his/hers. No day is the same as your love grow for the other person, and that is a feeling a few people today can say that they have experiance, you have to be really lucky to have a person that seek the trist and find it in you as I have found. When I met you my mind change and I got different views of the future of the life I want to live, and I finally get what the artist wants to say when he sings this song.

They have right when they say that nothing else matter, ‘cause in the end all that matters it that you and the other person feels the same, that you have the trust you are seeking for, that you really have your mind open for different views, but mostly that you don’t care what others say about you and your loved one and that you are the stronger person, and think even if you aren’t close with your loved one, he/she is close to your heart. Always be happy for what you have..

I will always listen to this song and really get what the song is about!

The song is Nothing Else matters with Metallica 

Love love love love and Love again xD

Okay I will talk about love today, why some people tend to show the whole world that they are so inlove with each other, but do you really have to show the whole world? Isn’t love between two persons, and not the whole world?

I mean I can tell everyone what I feel about Michael but that doesn’t mean as much as when I look in to his eyes and tell him what I feel, so he can see how I express my feelings, I can take his hand in my own hand and hold it while I am telling him what is on my mind, and trust me that is much, but that is somethings you can’t share with the whole world.

For me there is some weakness to have to show the whole world that you love a person, maybe you are unsure what that person feels for you, what he/she really feels as you have to show people that you love him/her. But some things are better to not share with the world

I can talk so much about my love and tell you all about it, but what if he don’t want the world to know, the same is with me do I want to see your relationship, how insure you are, how you are making everyone think you are so in love, maybe the thing is that you aren’t inlove and you need to pretend to be in love to make someone jealous, I don’t know why you have to show it every single day, everything you do, you name him and thing like that, honest people don’t want to see his/her name in everything you do.

Well who am I to judge the people that have to show their love, but honest people don’t believe you are so inlove if you have to show it, I get if you say “ I love you” every day to your loved one, but not something like this...

“you are my angel, that came from heaven, without you I can’t breath, without you my life isn’t worth living, you are the air that I breath, you are my everything, I only need you, and you make my life complete!!!”

That is just erm, what is the right word for this, just patetic that you have to show the world things like this, but I guess that is how you show love..

Anyway I would be happy if you don’t show it infront of me, thank you I feel sick that you show love to one person that I don’t like... The thing is can you fall in love so fast as you say you have done?

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Now I am really pissed, more than I use to be in my so called ”friends”


This actually takes the price, I mean I was talking to a friend and asked her if she had been with her ex boyfriend, I don’t care if she does the same mistake again, and again, as it is her life, the thing is that I care about her being happy, so if he makes her happy that is fantastic as she is happy

Now to the thing, as we live in a small village well where I lived during my so not good years in my life, one other mate called me as that person don’t like the ex to tell me that she was with him and her mother. But when you ask her about it she is totally lying to you as she says she wants a private life but if you ask it is because you want her to be happy, and if that guy make her happy it is good that they are with each other! But in my mind I don’t get why you have to lie over and over again, like saying I have met a new boy (oh yeah that is so much private) when you end up a lie that you have met a new boyfriend when you are with your ex boyfriend.

What more can I say maybe that is the point you should not care about her, as she is always lying to you and to most of the people she has met, or is it just me or some other that I have contact with.

The thing is how many chances should you give the person, how many forgivness should you give her, why do she always have to lie, is it because she thinks I care what she do? As I don’t care about that, but I do care if she is happy, well the thing is that I hope that she learns to talk the truth, she really need to learn that, otherwise she will end up losing everyone she has today.

Oh well I always talk the truth as that is the best thing to do, the truth actually takes you so much longer in life!


I hope that my mate wakes up and start telling the truth, and realize she don't have to tell everything in her private life but she should tell the truth if you ask her, she almost kills you when you ask how are you? are you still seeing him? and she is ARGH I WANT PRIVATE LIFE AND THEN LIES ABOUT EVERYTHING!

just something that was on my mind!

I started to write in english in november last year, the months go fast, the thing was that I wanted people to get to know me, the person behind Johanna, the thoughts I have, the thing is that I don’t think that people really know me anyway, okay they know me a bit better but do they know me?

So who is the person behind Johanna Maria? She is a person, that likes to watch some shows, mostly Family guy, The simpsons, South park, Pretty little liars, Gossip girl, Csi, and I have started to watch Awkward. But people really don’t get that I like to watch shows, but mostly I am watching cartoons, I love to watch them they make me smile, when I am down, when I need to think. I am always watching something when I write my blog haha, so funny.

Well the thing is that people don’t know what I feel or think, I don’t have so many friends, as they I have had, has always failed me, or betrayed me in things, one of my friend, if you said something to her, she told everyone about the thing. Is that a life of good mates, that they always talk about you, and make you feel so bad? One of them said it was my fault that one lad liked me as she liked him, but how can I control his feeling? The thing is that I never took him, as I knew my mate liked him, but the thing is I remember that I liked one person, and it was my mates brother, and she destroy every chance I had with him, by lying about me. She said I was shagging everyone, when it was her. She even said I was the person that made other feel bad, but It was the other way around.

But somehow it was the best not to be with him, as he is into guys today, haha, would have been bad to have been dating two guys that is in to guys today, that would have made me feel why can’t I see if they are gay or not!?!

But the thing is when I start to think about highschool, I was actually the person that always got invited to parties but I have never got why they invited me, even my mates brother invited me to his parties. I do remember one new years eve it was so fun I was with one mate, and well it ended up that she went to a party with another friend and they said to me that I wasn’t invited, funny story when I think about it, in the end my mates was going to a good party but their was just 4 people in the party, those two and one other girl and a boy, then when I called my so called best friend I wasn’t welcome to their party either, as one person on the party didn’t like me, hm okay that was not the worst feeling anyway, I went home and my mobile called and it was the boy I liked and he said Jo, I want you to be my date to a new years party in the pub we have rent, oh yeah I did go to the party and somehow everyone that I had been with wanted to get to that party that I was in. Haha they called me in the night and was like where are you we want to be with you I told them that I was in that party and they wanted me to get them in but I said you have to ask them who has the party, in the end they said no to them as they didn’t like the girls.. Well in the end my date had to carry me home bad to be 15 and drink to much when you don’t know how much you can take, the thing was that I had to sleep at his home, and as my best mate lived there his family did know me and his mother took care of me, and when my best friend come home her mother actually never told her that I was sleeping in the room next to hers, as I was so drunk and her brother was sleeping on the sofa, they took care of me.

The thing is that I learned who where my friend at that point it was them that I never was with my best friends brother was more of a friend than my other friend ever had been, he didn’t leave me when I was drunk he never used me, he took care of me more than anyone else had done ever in my life, the thing is that my so called friend always tried to be with me to get to the parties that they knew I was invited to as I was a swimmer girl, so I was in to sports, and that was pretty much what I did on my own time, after school went to the swimming pool and swim and trained, and when I had competitions home there where so many people that I knew but never talked to and they cheered on me in some strange way, they always supported me when it came to that as I was good in swimming. But when I was in school I never talk to me, they just went beside me and said something mean. The girls where jealous as I was good in something that they wheren’t good in, I was good at sports, I was good in things I didn’t knew, I mean when we had pe I always competed with the boys as it was so much funnier to beat them.

But the thing is that I love sports and things like that, but people never knew that I liked doing that as I never talked to them.

The other thing that I strugle to think is that do my real friends know me? They always wanted me to do things I never like, they are the best things they wanted me to shop but the thing is that I didn’t like it when I was younger, but now I do like it. The thing is that is fun to buy games, because it is so fun to play a game. I remember that we use to have games days and I beat my mates, in games that they said they where good in but nope I did win over them as I didn’t use to do so many things when I was younger.

I remember when I had a bad period and colour my hair green, pink, blue you name it as I wanted to hide from people but I didn’t and they started to make me feel bad ‘cause I had those colour in my hair.

The things is that I am shy deep down, and I want to make people understand, when I needed to use to talk to people I used to drink and somehow I could talk to them, because I didn’t get so shy.

The thing is that people has said that I am so cold when I come to feeling, I am not that I do tell people when I am sad, when I get hurt, and when I love someone, but Idon’t cry infront of people. I do love to show my feelings but I might not be good at it, but the people that knows me they know when I show feelings and what feelings I show. I love to kiss my boyfriend, I love to hug him and I am proud to have him beside me and I love showing how I feel for him, and I do that open, so that makes me to a cold person?

Now to the thing that I want to become in the future, I do want to become a mother, to be a proud wife, than that I can go to law school, or something else that makes me help people maybe to be a psycolog, I don’t know I know that I have to talk to my boyfriend, what we should do in the future. The thing is that I know for a fact that I need to talk to him what I want to do in the future, as I want to have him in my future and a relationship is lots of comunications, but the thing is would I be able to come in to law school?

Anyway I have talked to much about things now I feel like people never know me complete and I guess that they never will know me, I don’t like how I look like but I love the way I am. I have learned to love my nose I have learned to love my eyes, and I slowly have started to love myslef as I should do, thanks to Michael.

Answering some questions

This post will be about what people have been asking me, lately and I will answer them now here in this blog post!

What is your real name? My real name is Johanna Maria, and last names aren’t that important ;)

What is your opinion on a relationship and to make it work? My opinion on that are that you have to respect each other as humans and the others feelings, you have to understand the other person, and you really have to communicate with him/her as that are the keys of a successful relationship.

Do you love your boyfriend? Yes I do love my boyfriend Michael

Are you still together with your boyfriend? Yep and will be that forever

When is the right time to get married? I don’t know, probably when you are ready to celebrate the love you have with the person you are with.

Do you want kids? Yes I do want kids, one girl and one boy, and I do already have the names done, Nathaniel for the boy, and Jaana for the girl as I love those names

Have you ever been on a date? Yes I have actually been on one date in my whole life and it was with Michael I guess, we went to see Harry Potter, he payed the ticket and bought me popcorn a huge one and coke, I don’t think Michael likes our popcorn..

What languages do you speak ? I speak Finnish, Swedish and English, than I understand German a bit, danish and norwegian pretty good, and some estonia, I wonder if one sentence counts than I know a lot of languages xD

Have you ever cheated? Nope, I have never cheated on my boyfriend. I will never do that either.

What would you do if you get spoiled kids? I would slap their arses, I don’t like spoiled kids.

What is your biggest dream? My biggest dream is to become a lawyer but honest I think I would be more happy to become a mother, and to get married and celebrate love.

What do you think about Manchester United? I like them, if Liverpool aren’t in Champions leauge I would cheer on them, My family is pretty much a Mancester United fan, didn’t even know my dad was a fan of them until Michael was here :P

If you want me to answer more just ask me some !

The continue of the blogpost about jealousy that I wrote yesterday :D

Okay as you all know that follows my blog I wrote about jealousy yesterday, and today I will continue with that, as there are so many different jealousy, and things you can talk about when it comes to that subject, but this post has actually a mate on facebook given me the idea to write about, so thank you Lulu, and I hope you will like to read it.. Oh yeah just to clear somethings before I start, I don’t talk about anyone on facebook, or so the people I am talking about when it comes to jealousy is my real friends that lives here in Gothenburg, Sweden or close to Gothenburg!

Okay so now to the subject of my post, when you are in a relationship some people actually get the kick to make their partner jealous doesn’t matter if it is a girl or a boy, but they do try to make the other one jealous by doing things, like flirt open to others, write to others and don’t mention their partner, okay where do the line go between cheating and making the other feel insure about what the other person feels?

So we can start with facebook and one of my closest friends, she is not in a relationship or she is in real life but on facebook she isn’t she is single, as she wants the attention other guys are giving her, so she can use that to her boyfriend that she so supposed should love. The worst thing is that she don’t accept her boyfriends request so she tells him everthing they do, and say to her, and things like that.. Okay I do tell my boyfriends when guys bothers me, but that is not to make him jealous as she thinks, the differency between her and me is that I get so angry when they start to flirt with me, and I do tell them that I am inlove with my boyfriend, and that I am not avilible, but she do it complete different she start to talk about sex, and things like that, and yeah it gets better, as one of the boys that lived in our town went to see her, and she was like “Do I know you, no don’t think so, go to hell, here is my love of my life”

The thing is I have been there when she tells her boyfriend about the other guys flirting with her, and I see how hurt he gets as he knows she does the same thing, but what I don’t get it that he plays jealous as he knows that is what she wants, and then they just continue with this game, why not tell her the truth that you don’t care about the others and just care about your own relationship?!?!

Oh well guys aren’t that much better, they do the same things, as my mate does to his girlfriend when they are walking outside, oh well his girlfriend is pretty jealous when you start to think closely about their relationship. Okay lets start from the beggining with this they have been together for 5 or 6 years, but her boyfriend gets a bit flirty when he gets drunk trust me I know this for a fact, and I know how he is when he is sober too! Well now to the thing, when he is out with his girlfriend he tends to say oh she is hot, when he is with the other guys and the girls starts to boil up with the anger she feels, and the jealousy she has, one time she took me to the toilet to talk and she said in frustration I am trying my fucking best not to get jealous but do you see what XXXX is doing? Right infront of me, argh, help me Jo, I don’t want to feel like this. But in the end he gets what he want when they come home, a nice time in bed, and then he is saying to her according to herself, you have nothing to be jealous for even when I flirt and things like that, (we tend to play drunken games like spin the bottle and things like that here) I love you and I want to be with you no other girl.

But the thing is what actually chock me is that they stay in the relationship when they know that the other parter is making them jealous with purpose, if that happens to me I would leave even if I love the person, as I don’t like that kind of things. Everyone has probably tried to make their partner jealous sometime, lets see what did I do when I tried to make my partner jealous, I took on a mini skirt, a top and knee socks and went to a party, and the thing was that it didn’t work at all to make him jealous all he said was oh sweet I have a hot girlfriend that many people like?! Ufff that was a mistake to do from my side, but it is not healthy to try to make the other one jealous.

I would want the people that are trying to make their partner jealous, simply this. Ask your self if you love the person in question? If you say yes think again because why would you want to hurt the person you love, It is not healthy to be jealous, if you look at other guys/girls when you’re in a relationship are you truely inlove? Are you sure you want to have the person you want? Because you do clearly thinking of other person flirting with you, do you want them to kiss you, do other things? I mean where do the line go between cheating and hurting your partner? You really shouldn’t hurt the people you love you should make them the happiest person alive maybe do a nice surprise, write cute notes to him/her what you feel for them, what you want them to do when they come home from a hard day in work.

Oh well I hope that you have liked this post I really don’t know what more I can say about this without using the names of my friends and that would make me look bad, as they would come after me and kick my arse, haha, but you know you love me ;)

-Jo

jealousy is not a good thing...

This is a thing I want to talk about as I have seen I have seen it so much jealousy I see it everday in my mates world, I am jealous sometimes too, but not in the bad way though.

Okay lets start if you are together with one person, why would you think seriously that that person would take someone else, I mean he has choosen you, that must mean that he loves you and not other people.

My friends that have their loved one close to them, I am jealous of them, yeah I am jealous as they have them close and I don’t. I know for a fact I will love him forever and I wouuldn’t change a thing aas I really want him. But I am jealous of the people that doesn’t care about their loved ones and things like that.

I want to have my loved one close to me every day, for the rest of my life, I want to be able to kiss him when ever I want, and to hug him when ever I want. But I really need to wait for that, as I know he has something to do, but when he has done it I know we will have a wonderful life, and we will always be happy.

Now to the people I’ve seen act, they hit their boyfriends/girlfriend, because they don’t get as they want, and I mean it can be as silly thing, most of the time it is silly. They seem to not be living in the same place as I do, why the hell would they be so stupid and be jackarses to their loved ones. They say stupid things to their loved ones, things like this :

- Why don’t you love me? I have an answer to that, He loves you otherwise he wouldn’t be with you or would he? I really just hate people that, say that they don’t love the other person, I mean don’t you think your boyfriend gets hurt when you say things like that, I mean you are the love in his life but you are making everything to push him away, Please try to understand that he do love you, and you have nothing to be jealous of.


- Go and kiss her, you love her more than me? Oh yeah if you say that he might do it someday, as you are pushing him away, as you are so jealous. I would never say that to my loved one as I want him to kiss me forever, and never to kiss someone else


- Why the hell are you TALKING to her, it is your ex girlfriend? Now to my best question my mate is saying, I mean I wouldn’t like if my boyfriend is friends with his ex as he has had feelings for her in some part, but I wouldn’t freak out if he talks to her, I would just ask him if he had a nice talk as I can’t control who he chooses as a friend, and you should always have in mind that he is with you for some reason and not her, she is an ex someone he has kicked out.


- Do you really hate me so much that you, have to talk to others? I have seen this one really often and seen how the other person reacts, one almost felt hopeless as he tries to explain every day how much he loves her, but some how she don’t get that. Why shouldn’t your partner be able to speak with others? They are just friends, and he loves you, you really don’t have to be jealous of his friends, he don’t love them as he love you.

Now to the point I don’t see why you should be jealous, you are with the person and you should always remember that a person is with you ‘cause they love you and no one else. I know you can go nuts sometimes, but please please don’t get jealous of things, just keep remind yourself that you are the person that he/she loves you and no one else.

I am afraid that I will become one of them, oh yeah that is the worst part as I have seen, and trust me that is the worst thing ever, I hope that I will never become a jealous person, I don’t like people like that.. I hope that my partner will take me down to earth if I become like that, that is so scary but it will end up fine in the end I think.

Well my friends haven’t realized that Jealousy is the reason their relationships most of the times crashes as when you are that jealous you just kill it by yourself. I wish they would understand that they are the problem and not their partner, but sometimes you need a helping hand, and here it is with my blog post, I know they read this blog post, and I hope they realize what they are doing because I don’t want them to be sad, as I know they will end up crying. And I have to take care of them.


I will end this post with a quote from Jennifer James about Jealousy...

“ Jealousy is simply and clearyly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for ecidence to prove the point- that others will be preffered and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative – self – calue. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it’s mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ”

The thing you call facebook!

This post will be about the social network called Facebook, I have been there some years and have some good years and some bad years with it. I have met some great people there and some not so great people, there have been some drama, and more drama.. well where can I start..

Well it started when I probably sign up for facebook, as myself, well lets see, what can I say the first person that added me that wasn’t from sweden has to have been one girl from Spain called Maria, we became really good friends and we both liked Fernando Torres, thanks to him I met some other people like, Anna, whom I really care alot for, still today even if we don’t talk as much as we used to, and things like that, but Anna I would always kick the boys arse for you if you need it. Then I met a person from Argentina called Paula, I rememebr when I started to talk to her, it was kinda funny times, I know we aren’t so close as we once where and things has happen, but I do still like you as a person, and a friend.


Then we can say that I’ve met some wonderful boys too, as Vijay, Robert, Matt, Bryan and more people I can’t name here, but you all should know that you have made my life a bit better when I have been sad and that, you have always been there for me, no matter what, and I conider you as real friends that I want to met one day.

Than we have some girls that I do miss more as we don’t speak as much as we have done in the past, as Bilja, Branka, Doaa, Daca,Ira, Yupa, Marwa, and Lulu, and Indy you are the ones I can go to when I want to have an advice and need to talk about anything and nothing.

Then we have those that matters a little bit more to me as we are closer :

Katie one little girl from London, haha Katie is one of the persons I care alot for, she is like a baby sister for me, and Katie I am still on that mission to find you the perfect Daniel. The day you get a boyfriend or are thinking about dating you know I will be the person that have to say he is okay for you, I don’t want you to date a jackarse!

Bojana, I don’t really know where to start when it comes to our friendship we have had ours ups and downs, remember when we talked on skype and really talked out about what we felt we even might had some tears in that conversation, but eh you are the person I did tell, I miss you come back to me as a friend. You are the one I go to when I want to talk about my feelings, what I feel and things like that, you know those things you say, Jo, you are nuts, but I still love you. One day we will met and we will throw eggs on the bad people that walks on the street and laugh and have fun, we will go and see footballgames and even might live next to each other.

Than we have the person that I really can’t even write a short thing about, It is Michael he is my love, haha the thing that hits me is probably one of our first msn chats, a long time ago, it is when he says what do you look for in a guy, and I said he should be older, I don’t know how many times I have to eat that up, well he is the person I trust complete, he knows how I am when I am sad, happy, grumpy oh yeah, he has seen my worst sides too, I am still amazed he hasn’t run the other way, no but the thing is he has been the person that has helped me the most though the dramas that has been on facebook, as katie, bojana and his crazy cousin Georgie.

Michael is the person that I can go to and really say everything, when I think about it I have asked a lot of stupid questions to him as, why don’t neuner play, when Germany played their bronze game against Uruguay. All I know is that Michael is the person I want to have always in my life, and I will make sure he stays a long time too.

Thanks to Michael I have met Georgie, his cousin that has give me pretty good advice and been there when I have needed someone to talk to, even when I have been totally waisted, he always makes me laugh when he mess with me, but he has also helped me with lots of stuff.

Well the dramas has been so many that you can’t really write about them, but the thing is that all the drama has made me stronger as a person, and I know that there will be more drama, but I know one thing I will do when it comes, I will turn around and go the other way, as I want to be happy with my friends and loved one, and Facebook is pretty addictive, you always have to go in to it and see what has happen, and things like that, but there have been so many good things with it too.

I have met the best persons via facebook and I will always be greatful for that, and to end this post. I will end it with just this.

Thank you all for being my friend and to have made my life a bit brighter,

Xoxo, Jo

what I feel and about friends....

Oh well I have been alone for some days now, without anyone to talk to today, well I mean with voice not type, anyway I feel so alone, I can’t like talk about what bothers me, and that is any things today.

First of all I realize that it is really boring to be here at my parents house, I really like that you have nature close but the thing is I don’t want to go out alone as you might met a moose or other things that might attack you and yeah a moose has actually chased me to a tree once so I have respect for them these days.

The friends I have here don’t want to be with me, as they think I am well how do you say this mean, as I never care about their problems, like they have, more or less they always fight with people and if the truth shall come out I don’t want to be dragged in those problems as they will blame everything on me, some how they always do that.

How can you change your feelings, like when you feel alone? I don’t want to feel alone, but somehow I feel extremely alone, that is probably the worst feeling ever, I miss my parents, my unlce, I miss people, I really need to talk just talk about everything and nothing, I know that it is bad but hey, I am a person that loves to talk and I don’t know why but I will alwas love to talk.

What can I do, clean, have done it already, be with the cats that ignores me, oh I don’t want to make them be with me, but soon I will have to bug them so I can feel some love from someone, at least they don’t say that they hate me or make me feel alone they just don’t want to be with me, as everyone else in this place I am in.

The only person that wants to be with me lives a million kilometers away from me, and that is bad as I can’t go there to hang out >.<

Well that is how I feel today extremely alone, oh well I wanted to talk about something else so I will do that for a change and put a arse long post today just because I feel so damn alone so I don’t have anything else to do!

I want to talk about friends as this have made me think what a friend is..

We can start what I want in a friendship, that is honesty and for once I wish someone can just be honest with me, like not lie behind my back, talk trash about me, is that to much to ask for!

I want someone that actually can call me, and so I don’t have to be the one that calls everytime I have one mate that actually have been saying this to me, You never call me and when I ask her why should I be the one that always call? The answer I got from her was that it is to expensive to call me, oh hello it is as expensive for me to call you as it is for you to call me! You are just an idiot that actually are to greedy.

Than there is something that really bugs me and that is isn’t a friendship, where two people work so it should work? Oh it seems like I am the one that always works for so the friendship should work, I am so sick of the friends I have here, and somehow I know I will not get new ones as I am way to fucked up in my head, I can’t talk with “new” people I am shy, I don’t like to talk with people that I don’t know. I don’t know how to talk to people that I don’t know?

That is why it is so easy to talk to people that I have on fb, and msn as I don’t have to show how I look, or even better what I like, how I am as a person, the only people that knows how I am as a person is the people that have met me for real, that have seen how I am.

I mean when I am out, like in the clubs, I do miss if guys flirt with me, I don’t see what they do, and somehow those I am out with says how the hell can you miss that he flirt with you it is so obvious that he is doing that.. erm I don’t know it seems like I don’t work social as I am so shy, I don’t like things that other people do..

Lets see what do I like really, I like to draw when no one sees me doing it, I can’t draw when people sees me do it. I love to play games, and trust me I am a bad bad bad loser and I scream to much when I am about o lose, ask anyone of my mates. I like to swim, that makes me think more or less it is so good to be in the water. What more do I like to do I love to watch sports on telly, simpsons, family guy, South park and some other shows.

Anyway I think this is enough now I have moaned enough.

Well I hope my friends wakes up and see that I am a person that have feelings.

Some boys .... ARGH!

What can I say about this I will write about something that really
bugs me more than anything and it is some boys, mostly from the muslims
counties.

Well I have nothing against the people that act normal and things like that
'cause there are idiots everywhere but this take the price.

I have many boys that are from a muslim country and they don't have any
respect at all I was on my facebook and one guy started to chat with me as always
he bugs me to death with stupid things but the thing is that he actually
took this chat to far this time..

It started like this

him: FU

Me: oh yeah sounds fun

him: I want you, you make me so H*rn* my C*ok is standing, you make things to me

Me: you are a pervert, leave me alone I have a bf

him: I want to have sex with you, you get $200 for one night

Me: please leave me alone, you are sick in the head

Him: why don't you like me

Me: I don't just like you, you are not my type at all

Him: beause I am not black

Me: nope not because of that

Him: take me why would you not love me

Me: I dont love anyone that isn't from north Europe

Him: You don't like muslims

Him: answer me you W*ore

Him: FU

him: come on. you are single

Me: ME single you must be joking right, have you even seen my relationship status
here on facebook, Ha, I am married to my boyfriend here so, you all perverts
shoud leave me alone, but hell now, you are offering me money for S*x and
trust me I am sick of you, please leave me alone and stop bothering me

Him: oh sorry I didn't know you where serious with your bf, please forgive me



Now to my biggest problem, why do they tend to write like that they think
they can get anyone that they want, but they always forget that the other person might
be taken. Or even worst they think they are so hot that every girl loves them, but they
are so wrong as they are never hot or that, well those that talks to me.


The thing is that I have never had problems with people that are from Europe at all or
Usa, some people from south america has been like this too, and asia and africa but
most people that do this is from a muslim country, I just wondering who that is like that?

How can a picture make you Ho**y? Why do you have to tell the girl that, they dont want you
when you are like that, the only thing they actually think is what is this pervert, probably
an really old dude sitting on the other side, and why would they try to make you theirs
one offered me twelve camels one time, oh yeah as I want that. All I will say that
I don't think a chatolic can be together with a muslim as we have so different
views on things..

a request to write about feelings when they change

My friend Malin has really choose a hard subject to talk about that is what you should tell your boyfriend/girlfriend when your feelings has changed.

Okay this is the strangest subject to talk about really because me, as a person would really go to my boyfriend and tell him that my feelings has changed and then work it from there. as it can be bad and it can be a good thing.

Well the thing is that when you are in a relationship your feelings change during the time you are together sometimes they just stop and you realize that you are better as friends, but the thing is that when you end a relationship you tend not to be friends anymore and that is so sad. I wish I could be friend with my exboyfriend sometimes yeah I do I will not lie about it, as I do miss his friendship. I realize way to late that we shouldn't have been together, and today we aren't friends, and that hurts in some strange way, as we where best friends. but we can't be friends as he has feelings for me, and I have not those feelings for him.

But when the feelings change to the better you tend to start to look in to the future and slowly start to plan your life with him, but it is way more scary to tell those feelings for your loved one, as he/she might not feel the same. It is always harder to talk about things that might hurt you in the end, but I would slowly talk about it like what do you want in the future, somehow you get a view of what the other person feels for the future.

Than we have the friendship between two friends, do the feelings change in there too, yeah they do that, and sometimes you realize way to late that you don't need the person, and sometimes you realize that you need a person you have kicked out from your life and than you don't know what to do as you can't just call that person and say hello I miss you.

I have some friends that blackmails me to do things but that will end now, and the person that blackmails me to do this oh well my feelings for you is just go to hell here you have my oppinion on feelings that change in a realtionship, but you never thought that I would think about friends either.. Oh well all I will say is thank you for the friendship we have had, and hope you will have fun and happiness in the future because our path is going different ways.

I will end this post with this :

You got the smile, I'll pray to god every day, that you keep that smile. Yeah, you are my dream, There's not a thing I won't do, I'll give my life up for you, 'Cause you are my dream, And baby, everything that I have is yours, You will never go cold or hungry, I'll be there when you're insure, Let you know that you're always lovely, boy, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now, One day when the sky is fallin', I'll be standing next to you....