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Omg i am so sick of my life today... >_<

So sorry to say this but there isn't anyone that knows what is going around in my head so if you think you know you DON'T!!! so stop pretending you know me cause i have learn many things about me in the couple of weeks and that is that there is only one fucking PERSON in this world that's really know me and me and the others thinks they know me but how wrong they are...

Like how many does know how i really feel they are just complaining Johanna do you have to sleep so much but guess what i want to sleep forever because then you don't feel the pain.. I know i should go to the hospital cause i have so much pain that i for real cry and still i am so afraid to go to the fuckin hospital and no one can make me go cause i don't tell anyone how i feel... Well no one would care about me and my pain.. trust me i have already try to tell some people and they are just talking about them self..

Then i have my grandma that always asking me when i will get a boyfriend and get married and have kids what the hell do i have to DO that i don't love anyone right now... or i do love someone but he is FOR FUCK SAKE MARRIED!!! Omg i should have played so many people cause they had so right that i would fall in love with someone that i can't have and now i have done it so happy people I am in love with him and when i think of him i really just want to cry i don't get it how can i cry when i know that he is with someone else that's so stupid to fell in love with someone that makes you cry!! Omg i hate my life so much!!!

why can't i feel real happiness for once!! i want to feel it but i will never feel it cause who can love the mean bitch that i am !!

Look what people that i have love has done with me they haven't been real love i know that now thanks to the married man that i can't get!

XoXo,
Johanna

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What has happen since last time i have smulan and her kittens here O_o poor my sofa smulan likes it to much -.- and i am yelling at her NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEJ inte soffan and are mad at her...

Well i really don't have anything to say O_o