Sometimes I amaze myself when I think about my life, there haven't been so much luck at all, in friends, in life general, I started this blog to make someone listen to me, I can't believe that so many do read it honest I have over 300 people every month and because I write so badly randomly about anything.

The thing is that this blog has helped me more than anyone realise when everyone is thinking that I am the cold bitch most people that has read my blog realise that I am a pretty normal girl with normal feelings. The thing is that I never really show how much I get hurt, I have been taught in a young age not to show when you get hurt because people say something to you.

I have been called lots in my short but long life whore, slut, bitch, bimbo, idiot, way more. People has hit me, things like that. The thing is that I have tried to take my life once I wasn't that old either I was 11 years old, I am really happy that one parent found me and saved my life, I really wouldn't have been here if he wasn't walking his dog.

I have had eating disorder as people said I was fat when I wasn't I wasn't that strong when I was younger, now I am stronger way stronger that I think. I have always had really bad luck but than I have some glad moments, that actually made me think about other things than the bulling I had have in my life.

I was good in swimming, won lots of medals, I was good in running, helped me not being beaten up so much. I was strong always stood up for others that got bullied and got myself in the trouble. Beat up three boys when they bullied one of my friends.

I have always had a good relationship with my parents, and somehow I have found the best person in this world, and he loves me as much as I love him, so I think all that bad things that has happen to me, has formed me to who I am today.

I am not scared anymore of anything, not even for my operation I will have to do, in my heart, as I will have someone to hold my hand, when I am scared I know everyone else is as scared that I will die when I am as I am today. I can't really be scared because than it would be bad.

Some people always tell me who nice and sweet I am as a person, I can never see anything bad in anyone, even if people have treated me bad, and I mean really bad I can see the good side. You can always get my forgiveness as I see good thing in people. Even if they have hard time to see the good things about them I can see them.

You should always be nice and polite to people, and don't talk bad about anyone it always lead to mean things in the end.

All I am going to say really is that Life is always worth living no matter what bad you have in it it can only get better

-Jo