When you fall in love with someone you don't plan out to fall for the person, but the thing is you should be able to control how you feel when you are in public, if there is anyone else that likes the person and mostly of all you should be able to tell the person that you like him/her more than a friend.
Okay now to the biggest problem of all you have had it and I have had it, when you and your mate get feelings for the same person, the same dude, and you don't manage to talk about it, or you do manage to talk about it. But the person you like can't deal with it, and it leads to really deep shit. I don't know if it is you or your friend that is a coward, or if it is the guy in the question that is a coward? I mean if you and your friend talk and say that you are truly like that person and he knows it and your friend says the same, but the lad in the question says that he likes both of you? who is it to blame when hell breaks lose? Of course it is the lads fault he has lead you in to the darkness, and he will always be the one that never tells you the truth until it is really fucked up.
Me and my girl mate decided one day to not fall for the same lad, but the thing was that we both did, and the thing was that it was to late when we both had fallen for the same boy. I guess it was my fault in the beginning before everything got to deep, I knew that my mate liked him and I never planed to love him but I did. It hit me really to late, that I loved the person, I fucking loved him so much already, this is my story and my friend she has her own view you all shall remember that.
Well it was in the start of winter the snow was falling and I was talking to a person online on MSN and he was telling me that he was going to get in to fight with another person, the thing that actually hit me when we where talking about this was that I loved him, well not loved but liked him more and more, then thing was I was to deep with my feelings about this boy and my friend was talking with us, and all I hope is that I never showed it to much in the beginning, but it hit me like a lightning, I really was worried about this boy. I talked to him private and I even got the name to the other lad, and I looked up him, well I even mailed him I think not sure though, but when I talked to the person I liked I never wanted him to get hurt, and I was worried sick all I remember was that I was a really worried person, poor him. The thing was that my friend was as worried as I was.
The weeks went by and I know before new years eve I told him that I liked him more than a friend, and to my big fat surprise he told me that he liked me too, and I do remember that me and that other girl my mate was talking about him, and she told me that he loved her, and that got me hurt, it felt like my heart was made of ice and broke apart as I liked him too. The thing was that the boy and me spoke so much on skype and msn, and the feelings just got deeper and deeper, soon enough I actually told him I love you, he always told me the same things, but the thing was I guess he told the other girl the same words as he told me.
The more I loved him the more my friend started to hate me, as she loved him first she just thought I was doing lots of wrongs, and to one point it went so bad that that friend started to hate me, and I know this as I had the password to lads facebook, and I saw what people said about me, and things like that, but my only happiness was that he told the girl that he would go to bed but instead he talked to me, for hours, and we talked not on msn or skype, we both open a yahoo Messenger so we could talk to each other in private, but then the collapse came, as it always does.
The girl told me so nice that they two where a couple, and that he hated me, and didn't want to talk to me, but the thing even if I felt hurt me and him talked for hours and that, but in the end he choose that girl over me, and I have never in my whole life felt so alone, and so ugly but the thing was that the whole situation had just gone bad. he deleted me everywhere and tried to completely delete me out from his life
But now to things, we did talk he was never able to delete me as he loved me, he had realized that a bit to late, well lets say it like this, when he choose the other girl he thought he did the right thing but it wasn't he started to miss, me and we started to talk slowly again with each other and he even told my sister before me that he loved me, and when he told me that he actually loved me, it was like WOW, because I loved him, and I tried to push away all those feelings, it ended up that we got together and he told the other girl that he love me. My friend deleted me out from her life and she said that a boy would never come between us but she let a boy come between us, because when he choose me she never even cared that I was hurt that she ended our friendship. The things is that me and him are still together and we are really happy, he is the right one for me, but the thing is that my friendship got lost, even if me and that girl talks today, we will never have the same friend relationship as we had before because of that boy.
I really just regret one thing, and that is not to tell my friend that I liked him before I told him.
-Jo
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