Annoying people!

I really don’t know why people always tend to get in my way, or annoy me, well now to the things that actually bug me more than anything. Competing friends, family and things like that. Or even worse friends that pretends to be your happy friend when they aren’t. Now back to my moaning about this

I mean why do friends and family have to compete if you tell them that you are for once thinking about marriage, children and things like that some people around me gets so competing and has to beat me, come on why would you want to rush in a thing you don’t have thought about I mean I have thought about my choice and what I want, now why would you want to beat me? I don’t get it; I am just a girl that actually thinks lots before I do anything.

Yes sometimes I actually think more than do things, I mean when I was a kid, I thought about taking a tattoo, but then everyone and I mean it everyone had taken one, just to beat me, if I say I would get married tomorrow, or engaged a date they all would beat me, but you know what is the best I think I know when I am getting engaged, but with Michael you never know he might do it before Christmas, or even after Christmas, but there is one thing I know with him and that is that he will make it romantic and no one can beat him with that.

Then the other thing how can you compete with a person, I mean I’ve my own feelings of what is better and worse, and if you say your wedding is the best (of course you would say that otherwise you are stupid) just because you have spend more money than me? Then I would ask you did you just have a wedding to show of people, what a nice dress you had, the cake and all the other things, or did you get married for the right choice by celebrating the love you have between you two? I know what I want when I get married and, that is a small wedding with the close family and the best man and the bridesmaid, I really don’t want a big wedding, the smaller the better. My ideal is just to have two witnesses and get married in the court house; yeah I don’t want to be that person that shows off how nice dress I have and things like that.

Now to the other part that I actually hate more than competing friends and family, that is those friends that actually pretends to be happy for you. Okay if you get hurt that I am happy with my boyfriend, and that I am serious, is that because you are jealous of me being happy, or is it because you have feelings for me or my boyfriend. I mean come on if you say congratulations to me because I might get engaged around Christmas, or New Years Eve, than you are telling others that your life is destroyed because I am happy? I don’t get it okay you might be more blonder than I thought in the beginning!

Well the thing is if you don’t mean it from your heart don’t say it, as I get so damn annoyed when you just pretend to be my friend, than you stab me in the back and pretend being happy, but you have a back though about it, maybe you are trying to break me and him apart but that will not succeed. I can tell you everyone why that will not work

1. I love Michael with all my heart, and I am blessed that he loves me in the same way.

2. If you are trying to destroy you will lose my friendship forever, and I guess my boyfriend would get annoyed too

3. I feel complete with Michael

4. There is more reasons I will never tell you about

Anyway I am sick that people are competing people, and false friends, the thing is that you all think you are my friend but in the end we aren’t friend as you aren’t happy for me and that will never change as you aren’t willing to forget me. This goes even out to people that loves Michael, you aren’t a friend of mine, when you love my boyfriend, well some might be a friend, but you know what, I know that he will never look at you or anyone else, he is mine and I tend to keep him forever, am I selfish, Yeah, but I am that for a good reason, he makes me so happy and makes me feel like life is worthy living even when you have it really bad.

I love you Michael, and one day we will be a happy family, and we will enjoy every single day together.