trash talking

I have been a bit sad and upset today as I have been told, and they have been showing me what the other person has been saying about me, I know I should not care but I do as that person is someone that stands close to me, and I trust in that person so much but now it seems like all that the person thinks about me is just bad things :<

So apparently I lie 90 % of the time, and all I do is seeking attention, and that person doesn't want to be with me, honestly if this is how you feel about me why are you with me, why do you want me in your life?

Anyway, I really don't know what to do about that person at the moment as nothing seems right anymore, I feel completely alone and like my heart is broken to one million pieces.

People always seems to hate me, but they don't know me, so from now if you can't tell the truth you are out from my life and if you have been talking about me tell me now, if I find out it other way I will just be more sad.

Nothing seems like it goes in my way, can't wait until christmas when I can hug Michael so much as I really just need a big fat hug from him.

-Jo