Love and jealousy

Today I will write about love and jealousy that you can have in love I know it is hard to confess that you might be jealous or that you are to jealous to realise that you are in love with the person, and that you hurt the other person.  

This will be hard to write as I actually have to think about things I don’t want to think about, but here is my side my story of what I think about love and jealousy.

Anyway here is my start. Love is something you actually don’t feel over one night even if it feels like that; it takes time to grow to something special, and deep. You do like a person in the beginning You never just start to love the person right away, if you do that, you really don’t know what love is about.

The thing is that I don’t think there is love at first sight you really just don’t realise that you will love that person right away the first attraction is that you start to like a person.  Love is something that takes time to get to; love is so much stronger than I can explain not good at least.

Love is when you really can trust in someone as much as you trust in yourself; love is when you put someone else feelings before your own, you slowly start to care about the person as it was yourself. You never want the other person to feel bad, ill or sad, the worst thing is when you really realise that you can’t do anything to make the person feel better and that is more painful than you being hurt, got your heart broken in one million pieces, when you truly love someone and you can’t do anything to make him feel better you feel more worthless than ever. Love makes us think so different, you really aren’t thinking about yourself as the main person, but you really are thinking about yourself too in the same way that before.

The thing is that sometimes you do get jealous before you really know where you have the other person that you like, that is not love when you are jealous, jealousy is something that makes you unsure who you are as a person. You might as the other person what he has done, why he talks to other people, why he talks to that girl, if you are the only one for him. You slowly are turning in to big brother if you can say that, trust me not a good sign. The thing is that when you start to get to jealous the other person suffocates, and slowly start looking for other girls, and other people and you loses the person that would have been the best person ever, just because you can’t control your own feelings, and because you are too worried that he might like someone else when he really likes you.

The thing is that when a person is jealous the other person slowly start to go away, because you don’t want to have someone that always control you as a human being, you can’t control who the other person can or will be friends with, hello, than I would say that my boyfriend can’t have any female friends, just because I am afraid that he would fall for someone of them. No that is bullshite, honestly you should be happy if the person you are with has lots of friends, otherwise you will feel like the bad person that took everything away from him.  The only thing I can do when he has someone I don’t like, is to tell him that I don’t like that person, and tell my reasons why I don’t like the person, and say I would be happy that you don’t met that person when you are there.

The thing is that people tend to say I love you too early, you really have to wait with that until you are really sure that you love the person that you tell those words to, when you say the words you should truly mean them otherwise you are just a lying bitch.