Love is something that makes you really happy but it can make you really sad too, I will explain it all later one in this post. I guess I will start with the sad part as it is always bad to end a post with sadness.
While I am listening to anywhere for you with Backstreet boys I will write this blog. I will start this post as simple as I can.
I am a girl that is in love; the thing is that I have never been truly in love before I met Michael. I really never thought love can feel as it does, honestly I feel totally torn apart every single time I have to leave him, I want to cry as I know how much I will miss him, miss talking to him, miss his hugs, miss the kisses, miss the bed time, trust me I really miss all those silly but so wonderful things.
Nothing feels good when I am without him, I feel like my heart is in two places, and I can’t do anything to make it whole again, it get whole again when I see Michael, and those moments, those seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years I am with him, makes me feel so complete, like I have found the missing puzzle in my life.
The thing is that love is really the best thing that can happen to you as a person, you start to smile silly when you think about the person, you feel complete warm inside when you hear him say your name. But the best part is to just stand and look in to the person’s eyes and just frown in them, while that person is looking at you in the same way as you are looking at him.
Things that usually is easy to do or say, becomes hard and feels so new, I mean when you say I love you and hear that person say it back makes you heart skip a beat, when you see the person you love in pain you feel the pain yourself, but when you see that person you love smile all you want to do is to stop time and remember that smile that person has at that moment when he looks relax and so handsome.
The thing people tells me about love has been a lie, love is hard, really it is hard when you aren’t together when you can’t see the person as much as you want, it breaks your heart, but you wait for those moments when you finally can become whole again and that time, everything really stands still. If you have been in love you really understand what I mean. You want to be with the person you love always and forever. Nothing else seems so important anymore, I mean I do care about stuff but the person I care most for is Michael, and how he feels.
The thing is that I remember one thing Michael told me once in the phone/skype when I was falling asleep, well I was probably half asleep already when he told it, it was in april 2010 I think, I remember every single word when I think about it. What he told me was: Johanna, you are the most beautiful woman in this world, I wish I could be there to hug you, sleep tight my princess, I love you and one day I will whisper those word in to your ears.
Well I don’t really know if he has said them because I tend to fall asleep like a baby when he is here with me, I sleep so good when he is close to me, I wake up with the biggest smile on my lips, Enjoying the mornings more than anything. The nice kisses I can give Michael to wake him up, yeah I am kinda mean I do wake him up in the morning, and he is so cute when he is about to wake up, my heart melts when I think about it, when I can put my lips on his and say good morning sweetheart, slept good with a cute smile, and he answer yep I slept good.
What more can I actually say about love one million more things I guess, no billion or trillions, because you always learn something new when it comes to love, and it changes you to the better person, and when you are feeling down, sad or lonely, just think about happy things you have done with your sweetheart, the love of your life and you will start to smile and feel all warm inside.
That was all for me today, hope you all have enjoyed to read this one, and I hope Michael haven’t read it..
-Jo
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