Request from Daniel :)

One of my old mates wants me to write about something that he has wonder for ages, so I will actually write about it, why I did choose to say no to Fredrik, and then to not choose someone from my college time as a boyfriend.

Let me just start with my college than, I went to a good college with mostly people that has money so they can do whatever they want, but the thing is that I am happy I went there as I really know what I want in my life, they did not bully me for who I am or what I liked as they did in high school.

But when I went there I was with Jonas a jerk in the end, trust me I do miss the good times Jonas, Those small things we had that was good, But this was the time you started to cheat on me because other guys liked me, and you got unsure about me being in love with you, Jonas I did like you lots but honest you where not the one, when I look back at the past you where totally wrong for me. You where right about one thing I did like Sam more than and a friend, and in the end I wanted to be with him. Then the other thing that bugged you where that your own mates liked me more than they should, Fredrik did want me as his wife, Linus your best buddy was obsessed with me, but you never protected me when I needed you Jonas.

Well now to the thing Daniel, when Fredrik asked me to marry him all I felt was run as far as you can Johanna, I don’t love him at all in the way, I love him as a mate only, I even like you more than I do like Fredrik, The thing is that Daniel has not be honest to none in the gang either, there are things he has been hiding from Fredrik, Jonas. Linus and Kimpan, we used to kiss on the bus trips, the tram way he always denied that he liked me more than a mate, but I guess he did like me more but we never ever got together as he was best friend with my ex and my friend liked him so much, well I feel bad because I did like him and kissed him even though I knew those things.

Well now to the real problem that is that Jonas really doesn’t want to let me go for real, I am so happy with Michael he really is my everything. I wish Linus, Jonas and Fredrik can see how happy he makes me ‘cause I will never ever be with anyone from my college time as I don’t love anyone of you. You all ask me why I have changed I haven’t I have just seen what real love is about, and trust me when I think about Michael I just smile like a little kid that open her presents on Christmas eve, all I want is to be with him forever and ever, I hope you three will let me be happy and don’t try to destroy for me, I am truly happy with him.

Fredrik was so wrong for me in every way, Jonas used me and never told me the truth that he wanted to be single, Linus I don’t even know what to say about him because I really don’t like him at all, we where good mates one time a really long time ago, but you really destroyed everything when you decided to try to destroy the only good thing in my life. I am happy I have known everyone of you because somehow you where the first person that really accepted me as a mate a true mate in school time, as you where nice and taught me that you can have mates that is nice to you, but the way you did after college time is not right.

I miss Jonas many times, but I don’t want him in my life anymore he is in the past, I want to look to the future, and be happy, and with them I was not happy I was in a huge black hole because they had so many games, so many things I don’t want to talk about. Daniel you are the only one I talk to from the college time, and we are losing touch too as you live where the hell do you live these days? Berlin, Munich, Bern? I get lost, but I wish you all the happiness in the world. And you of all people should know that Fredrik was wrong for me!

I will end with one thing you shouted out on a party: Let’s get wild and dance all night long, kiss strangers, and pretend to be someone who we aren’t, you know you love me for the crazy person I am. Let’s start with the party!