Michael..

I thought people lied when they said that they feel warm all inside when they fall in love with the right person, that you can feel the butterflies in the stomach. I know that I should have listen to them because you do have butterflies when you are truly in love with someone. You can’t describe in words what the person means to you, what you feel for him/her. Honest that is the hardest part is to show the whole world what you feel, and trust me I do want to show the whole universe that I love you that I want to spend every second with you, I don’t want anyone else.

Somehow everything is written in the stars, what we shall do what happens in our lives. The only thing you know for sure is that you will die one day, and you should not be afraid of dying you should love to live, death is something we all are seeing and experience.

The hardest thing in life is to live, if you are like me afraid of thing, those things actually makes it hard to live. Because you do think about those things, I am so afraid of getting hurt that is actually one thing that I am so afraid of that I don’t open myself to so many people. But those that really sees the real Johanna knows who I am and I am not afraid of being her when I am with those that I trust and know that will not hurt me.

How come it is so much easier to show when you don’t like anyone, I mean there is one girl I don’t like and I show it really much too. Well I mean I have told that person that she is stupid to think others will like her because she treats other people bad, she don’t even realize that she might hurt the other person because she is so stupid. I have no trouble to say that to her and I can actually get really bitchy to her mostly because I despise her more than anything; I have no problems to show it to the world. I would be really happy if the rest of the world can see how she is as a person.

But now to the hard things to show love to the one you love. I can’t show it open I think I need to take that private. Mostly because it is so deep feelings behind that love, I can say I love you, but there are only you that knows what I feel for you entirely. You know that I become the little girl that gets so shy that I get speechless, but you also know that I can tell you what is on my heart, what is on my mind, and you will never ever judge me. You just say tell me everything, I have told you my thoughts my things and you have helped me so much.

The thing is that when I think about you I start to smile, and I feel completely warm in my body. I don’t feel scared when I think about the future, because I know that I want you in it, I want to share every second with you. I want to be the one that makes you feel good, the reason you smile, the reason you are happy, just the way that I feel for you. You are the reason I smile, you are the reason my eyes looks happy, the reason I feel completely happy inside.
I really don’t want to miss the chance to be happy, and I don’t want to miss any kiss from you, I don’t want to fall asleep because it will be 7 hours without you and those 7 hours I could hug you, show you how much I love you. I am afraid that there is not enough time to show you how much I truly love you Michael there will never be a time where I don’t show you how much I love you, I would go to every country and tell everyone that I love you.

I want you to be beside me when I am lying on the ground, watching up to the sky in the night, watching up to the star. I want you to be beside me when I walk on the beach while it is sunset, I want you to hug me tight and whisper to my ear how much you love me, because at that moment I will be the little girl that I can be. I want you to be the person that saves me when I am about to fall in to a dark hole that I can’t get up from. The day we all girl dreams about I want to happen with you, and when I walk down the aisle I want you to lose your breath because I am so beautiful.

When we are watching the stars together I want to lie on you and look deep in your eyes, and tell you look at the sky there is not enough stars to tell you how much I love you, there is not enough stars in the universe to show you how happy my heart is to have you as my sweetheart Michael, I truly love you and I want to spend every single moment with you. I will never be cold, because all I have to think about is you to get warm again.

So with this post I have showed people, a part of how much I truly love you Michael, and there is not enough words to show it, trust me I know!

I love you Michael,

Yours, Johanna