I am sick of people in general they don’t respect other people! Uff the hard thing is when you have to talk to those people that doesn’t respect you as a human, or the person you are..
I want to share something here on my blog, that makes me feel like I am a better person that people know about, I had a conversation to a girl the other night, I will not name names, but oh my god, that person wants to save something that you can’t save. I mean we talked and I said okay lets be honest for once, and I asked her have you ever talked bad about me? I really thought she would lie, but guess what she confess that she had talked bad about me, and still she doesn’t have anything against me, how the hell can you not have anything against me when you speak bad things about me? I think that person really need to think close to what she has said about me, because I know everything she has said, thanks to those that are my real friends has told me..
Well now to the conversation, I asked her do you really think that I would want someone like you in my life? In the life life of those I love? I know for a fact she knows I don’t like her, and when she just confess this I don’t like her at all everything that I might had that I might be able to like about here went down the toilett, well I can only speak to myself, but I don’t want people that talk trash in my life about myself, and honest she can moan and tell everyone I have talked bad about her, everyone else would know she is wrong, because I would never go to her level. I know what kind of person she is.
She would not respect that people are happy, she wants to drag you down always, and the worst part she thinks that she is the best. She is faithful and in every faith it says you should respect people no matter what, and she doesn’t do that, she just say people can do things wrong, oh yeah they can do that, but they don’t have to talk open and things like that, I am glad things are out in the open because she doesn’t know that I am far from done with her! She will have to stand for what she has done, it always comes back to you to haunt you!
Well that was the first subject now on to the other one I wanted to talk about..
It is people that is so false, they say up friendship when the other person has friends, lovers that they don’t like. Then they start oh the best part to talk shit about their friend because they have the person that they want to have in their lifes, honest you all show your real side and you do it really bad, if you don’t like the person that they want to have in their life you aren’t a true friend.
A true friend is someone that actually stands by you even when you mess up things, they choose to stand by you. I know for a fact I am a real friend, because my best friend oh yeah she actually choose to take a bad dad to her kid, and be with him in a relationship twice! Still I am her friend and I know she will listen to my opinion, but in the end it is her choice and not mine, but those that talks bad about their friends that they had aren’t a true friend. They don’t know what a friendship is about! They only causes drama, to other people, I know been there done that!
How can you as a friend even if you aren’t friends today talk bad about the person, you have shared good memories with the person, you have shared your opinions, your secret, I mean then you really show the others that they can’t talk with you because you are telling things to others, and want everything to be as you want them to be. I know some people will regret how they have treathed some people because when they realize what they have done it will be to late and they have lost a good person that might be the one that always stood by you no matter what.
Now to the third subject my ex boyfriend that doesn’t even know what he talks about.
I know that he is worried that I will get hurt, but it is my life, and I will still do what I think is right for me. J, you and me will never be together again, and I will never in my life marry you. Because I know for a fact that I don’t love you and I never loved you, well maybe in the beggining but not in the end, I cried more than I smiled, that is not a life. I knew you where cheating deep down, I will not blame everything on you but I should have left you so much earlier, and let myself be happy, but we had good times, and I will try to remember them, but honest you need to leave me alone, I don’t want you in my life at this point of my life.
You remind me of bad times and I don’t want to remember them, I have started to clean up my friends, and you are one that I don’t want to have left in my life, you have to respect that and so doesn L have to respect. I know you are mad because I choose to have F left but I like him as a friend, I miss him as my friend that wasn’t inlove with me, I hope that he will get over me, so we can go back to our friendship, when we played games, had fun. Today we can’t do that because he love me to much and I don’t love him in that way. Why can’t J understand me, I don’t want him to be a part of my life, I will probably never want him in my life, I want to remember the good times, as when we where in Marstrand walking and just had fun. Not when I was wondering if he loved me and cried myslef to sleep.
So J, if you are a true friend you know you have to let me go, since I don’t want you in my life anymore, and take L with you please! I do deserve to be happy as I am.
I really wish people can respect things, but the thing is that people are to stupid to understand when they hurt someone, and they do that without knowing it. I have hurt people lots, and I am sorry for hurting you. But you might have hurt me too, when I think about it it is better not to open yourself to so many people because they doesn’t respect you as you are anyway.
People should learn what respect is, what love is, and what honesty is.. when you know those things you can be my friend!
I don't say I am perfect because I am far from perfect!
/Johanna
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