Love and hate

Today I will talk about something that is on my mind and have been on my mind sometime when i was at work. Love and hate.

Well let me start about hate, there is different hates, you can hate things and humans. Well according to me if you hate someone they have a chance to come back to you since hate is really close to love. Well now to the thing, I hate things really many things, mushrooms I hate, jealousy, spiders, thunder ect.

Well now to the thing I do hate how the world is today, I mean there is not one place you can truly just enjoy the life because today you need to work and you need to get money to survive. That really sucks I wish you could just choose a life where you can make your own food, I know I like the country side more since you don’t stress as much as in the town.

I hate to talk about my feelings because every time I have tried to talk someone has used them against me, I know you should trust in people. But I can’t even trust my close mates how can I really trust someone I just have met? The only one I can truly trust is myself not even family. You have to learn that to trust yourself before anything else.

The thing is that I truly don’t think you can hate any person as those haves feelings, and I want everyone to remember this is my thoughts, none others thoughts. Well the other people as you seem to hate I don’t think you hate, you really just dislike them or not like them as they are false as you can say, or that your personal chemistry doesn’t click. The thing is even if you do dislike anyone you still have to respect the other human on the other side. I mean if you start to scream mean things to the other person, start to talk bad about it you really aren’t much better than the other person. I know that the most false animal on this earth is a human and well I can’t more than agree because we do lie so much as a person.

I still have one thing I always start to think back at when I start to dislike people respect them as they where your friend because in the end you can look back and think I was bigger than them, I deserve to have happiness and not the things that comes when you start to talk trash, because it will come back to you someday.

Then when you really start to think about hate and love it is really close to each other. I mean you probably was inlove with your ex when you where with him/her but in the end you start to hate/dislike him/her lots since they might have broken your heart, been cheating or treat you bad.. But you might be the one that left him simply because the love ended, the thing I know from many girl mates (mostly) is that they would take back the ex because they love him even if they say they hate him.

My dear friends say that they love me, but why can’t they let me be happy as I am now. You can’t choose for me who I should be with because I need to feel that it should be right. I mean I don’t want to be with Jonas, Fredrik, or Linus as you want me to be. You really should respect that I don’t want them. Jonas is my ex and he is in my past as I said we have had good times but mostly we had bad times, you don’t know what we went through because I never ever talk to you about that, I never shared what happen. You should stop trying making me go out with him I really don’t like him as a person but I do respect him as a human being.

I love my mates but they should learn what respect is because they don’t know what it is. If they knew how happy I am they would not try to mess up my relationship I have now, or try to make me feel bad, just so I can go back to Jonas or even worse Linus. Fredrik knows that I will never take him I have made sure about that to him but as I say about them they are morons so you never know about them. Anyway I will tell my so called mates and the readers what I do want in a guy as some thinks I am just after well the player.

I want someone that respects me for who I am. One that loves me just the way I am. I want someone that sees when I am sad even if I don’t show it, someone that can put me in place when I am wrong because I never ever confess that I am wrong, but if you love me and you know how I get when I am clueless in a fight. Not because I use words because my temper is not the best when I fight. I can actually say that I don’t want to be with the person and don’t mean it, just because I am hurt or really angry I am messed up in the end. I want someone that can make me smile when I am sad, someone that makes me happy just by being the person that they are. I don’t care about the money or other things, because when you truly have found love you don’t care about the other things, you want the person because they know you deep down and respect you.

I am far from perfect. I should learn to communicate better when I am in argue with those I love because I might end up losing the persons I truly love, I feel sorry for the person that ends up with me. I know myself I use words like: Nothing, whatever and nice. Trust me not the nicest things to say to someone when you are arguing I know I have to try to get better at communicate.

Well I think this was the thing I wanted to talk about really today.

Enjoy the day and take care of each other.