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Well I have been thinking lots today, maybe it is so that I have to say I am sorry to people that should tell me that they are sorry but that is one thing I have done, I mailed one, mostly because I hate the drama, the things that has happen.

People can’t understand how much I got hurt, how much it still hurts every time I think about it feels like my heart is breaking, still hurts lots. But I have friends that helps me more than they know, they always tells me how wonderful I am as a friend.

I know one thing if there will be anymore so called drama I will leave everything and everyone behind me no matter who they are, if they really care about me they would call me and talk to me, and really put an effort to be my friend.

This time I will be Johanna all the way, I will live my life to the max., because in the end it is my life in the end. What things do I want to do with my life it is to be happy and drama doesn’t make you happy it just drags every single way and you get so much negativities from it. I mean why the hell would I really care to fight with people that think they are better than me in every single way. The thing is I am tired of people telling me things that I am not doing or blaming everything on me, that is not fun in the end, people tend to say that I am a bitch, but have they seen me because when you really get to know me I am shy, really shy and don’t talk so much.

The thing is that I don’t like what has happen the last 20 months there have been some really good times and really bad times. But the thing is that the good times have been more than the bad times. Honest what has changed really it is probably that I have been starting to think again, who would I want in my life and not want in my life.

This summer I have set some goals. One is to go to England I don’t care where to be honest as long as I go there and have fun. Then to go camping with someone in some random place here in Sweden, just take the train somewhere near a lake or something and just have fun, maybe I will go on a fishing trip and camp there with my mates or the person that goes with me. Then to be a kid on Liseberg that is an amusement park, they will have a new ride that I will never go on I am a chicken I know but I don’t like high things that goes fast down. What more goals do I have this summer to be happy and really have fun just.