My year in a short essay

This year I will end up with writing what has happen the whole year for me as a person. This will probably be the most truthfully blog yet so don’t judge me…

The year started with the worst hangover ever promise I had my hangover for at least three days. That was the reason I decided to end drinking complete. People have asked me why I don’t drink but honest it isn’t worth feeling shit for days.

Then what more happen in January I had to go to pointless meetings, study mathematic and the teacher wasn’t even able to help me. He said I was too smart for him

February was just complete boring, I felt alone as most of my friends have a boyfriend or a girlfriend and you have Valentine’s day well just say that it was a day you really want to have someone to share it with but I was alone and didn’t share it with anyone.

Mars, April and May was really pointless months in my life don’t even remember what happen here but I know I was looking forward to the world cup.

June the world cup started and my life seemed to be good was happy and summer was on the way but somehow it would come crushing me down the next month.

July all I really remember from this month was that I had a break down I almost lost a good friend :< anyway everything went for the best in the end.

August: probably was the best month because I got my boyfriend and I found out things I never thought was meant to be for me.

September my best friend from my childhood decided to break every trust that I had in friendship she really just decided to lie the shit and hasn’t even confess today that she was with a guy that beat her up, well it’s her choice but she has a kid to think about
October I started to talk to a person that has helped me lots in thoughts about my future that lead me to the school I am in now that I started in November.

November was really a month where I was ill I got my hand operated and then I got other things but eh at least I will not be ill so much now.

December: Have just been great lots of snow and cold weather really what I like but somehow it is the month I realize I feel alone when I am not alone.
That is short what has happen to me during this year but I will continue with the friendships I have got and lost this year mostly because I need to get it out before 2011 so I can’t talk to others about

This year it really started that some girls started to trash talk about me because I fall for a boy I think I didn’t really realize that it would get so much attention that I fall inlove with someone but I guess I was wrong, in this time I saw who was a true friend and who wasn’t a true friend. Just say this that now in the end of this year I have heard what the girls has said about me and it is nothing nice one actually said to another person that I was destroying a relationship by falling inlove with the boy.

The thing is that in this part the boy and I talked and he never told me that I was in the way if he would have told me that I would have respected his wish since I love him.
Then in the summer one person told me to not to be friend with another amazing person because she liked a boy that liked this girl. Anyway it ended up that I was the black sheep in the whole thing and I got so much from people I didn’t know that I actually spoke to the boy about the things, he was amazing that day he made me feel like I was a person. Because the person that made me feel like I should hang myself bad thing really.

Then one other girl started to tell me that I control one other person that is totally bullshite you can’t control anyone. But she also told me that I should stay away from him but honest why would I stay away from my boyfriend. That was my only thought.
But now to the most sadly thing that is that one friend decided to go together with her ex boyfriend that beats her and use her in a bad way, okay they have a kid but honest I can’t see why she would choose him over her friend. She lost many friends thanks to this thing, and then she lied about it why not be honest and just say Johanna I am with him again. Okay I wouldn’t support her but she knows that she lost my friendship thanks to her choice to lie about a silly think like that.

This year I have thought what love is about it is to respect the other person and listen even if you don’t agree with him/her, that you can share everything with one person is really amazing and to feel complete in some way I can’t explain the thing is that I feel so complete that nothing can break me apart literally.

One thing I really learned this year was that even if people hate you and trash talk you, you just have to show the other people that you aren’t like that, I mean I almost lost one friend but we decided to keep talking and we build a friendship that lead us on a different path and even if was probably the worst moments in my life when I heard those words that that person said to me, I also know you have to show the real person you are and if that isn’t enough for the others they aren’t worthy you time.

This year has really been too much tears and tears people think they really know how it feels to be me, but they don’t my ex boyfriend Jonas actually said to me that he was glad he wasn’t me and he wouldn’t even want to change life for one day with me because he knows how hard it is to be me.

This year has change me as a person lots, I have learned to not trust in anyone since they always break the trust there are only a few people I trust in complete and this year I will just be more careful than ever I am sick of getting hurt and feeling so hated as I have felt this year. I know I have become stronger and that is good :)


I hope this New Year will come with lots of happiness and love that is something I need for a change.

Now to everyone that has read this thank you for the time and I have got out what I wanted to say I think.

Peace out my readers and be safe tonight