What I have seen...

Today I will talk about one thing that actually bothers me more than anything and that is how hard it is to be a woman, oh yeah every boy mate I have don’t really know how painful it is to be a woman, and yeah we woman do over think everything, that is the only thing I do admire boys mate with that is that they don’t tend to over think anything and what they say they tend to do, in some strange way they mostly stand for what they have said and all that, but girls we don’t do that.

Well the first thing that I don’t like when it comes to a being a woman is the week we all have, that makes you feel so sensitive to everything, the only time I really don’t want my boyfriend to be squeezing my boobs, or him to tell me how beautiful I am because this is the time I don’t think I am that, I feel so ill and all I want to do is to be in bed crying feeling sorry for myself, the thing I am talking about is period, all girls have it well that is a lie if you have anorexia it goes away, or when you are mega fat then you can’t get it, but most woman do have it, but how many do actually have so much pain that they can’t move, when their boobs are sensitive, or when you feel like a balloon, we all feel so worse when we have it.

The other thing that complete sucks to be a woman is that we have to give birth to a kid, well I know it’s a miracle, but when you actually do give birth you have loads of pains, and to think that a kid can come out there is actually just giving me illness thoughts, as I know my whole body will change, but the thing that amaze me is that we tend to forget about the pains we feel as a woman, I can’t even remember how painful it was to break my ankle, when I think closely I can’t remember a shite about that, but I know it did hurt a lot as I cried when I got the hold of my brother to tell him that my foot was broken, well I don’t think he even heard what I said when I tried to explain for him that my ankle was broken, well I am amazed that we humans forget pain so fast.

Than to the thing that I actually do admire is that boys are so easy if you want to know if you look good, and all that, you should ask a boy mate as they always tells you the truth, girls mate don’t tend to do that as they want other girls to look bad so they would look better. I have lied so many times to my mates about their clothes. But they have always told me that I have been dressed like a sloppy sport person, oh yeah I loved to walk in adidas, nike and puma pants when I was younger, and I still love that, I don’t care if I look ugly as long as I am comfy I am happy, I hate jeans and tight trousers I have never liked them, and I will never like them. I rather go in a skirt or shorts, when I think about it when I was in high school I had more or less punk clothes on me as they were so comfy but only in school when I came home I changed clothes and just went out to run or stuff like that.  Anyway now I am off this subject complete I feel well the boy mates are so easy to hang out with they never tell you a lie well they probably do when you feel absolutely down.

Well I liked a boy in high school, and all my girl mates told me that he liked me but the boys mates they was cruel I remember what they told me, Johanna he don’t like you if he did he would have asked you out, honestly it was the hardest year in my school thing for one year I was in love with a him, that boy that actually was a mate, that I did talked to and he did talk to me too, he always made me smile and all that, then I remember in December on my own birthday he decided to tell me one thing, that was that he liked one other girl and that he wanted my help to hook them up, and all I did was feel dead inside but I did help him as I liked him and wanted him happy and everyone thought I was stupid but in my mind I thought he would see that I was the right person for him, and he to want me, but no he never saw me in that way. I know his girlfriend didn’t like that we were friends as she knew that I liked him I think everyone knew it even him but I never got him was so hard really was the worst year in the school but I had a good year, was so damn fun even if I was madly unhappy inl love.

The irony in this story was when we went to college and I had finally forgot about him that crush that I had in high school, and we went to the same party like one year after he totally destroyed my birthday he actually told me that he had feelings for me but then it was me who said I  am sorry I was madly in love with you in high school but now I am having a new one in my life that makes me smile that way you made me smile and the best thing is that he likes me back, but we all know that me and that boy never had a real relationship it was the sickest thing in my whole life, being with him but he being with so many others, I guess he only liked me in some ways, but not enough to just want to be with me.

I know that girls tend to get jealous, boys don’t, it would be fun to see for one time that a boy can be that jealous bitch as girls tend to be, or that they get so doubtful that they have to show it for people; I have never seen a boy be like that.

Girl’s talk trash behind your back, do they ever stop with that really?  I am happy I had mates that mostly was boys as they taught me one good thing in my life and that was to be honest no matter what, tell your girls mate to go to hell if they hurt you with the bullshite, I wish I could go back to high school being with all my mates and just have so much fun.

  

- Johanna