Lost sister

Why is life so unfair? I have been thinking of my lost sister that lives but never has wanted to know me or my sister, but mostly our mum as she doesn’t have the same mum as us, she hates us more or less as her mum has lied to her about us, saying we never wanted to have her, but that is not true.

I know that this is hard to speak about and hard to read about but I will tell you about her, she is older than me, born 1979 in February, I know her name but I don’t want to name her. She had a hard life really hard as they placed her on a home for kids with trouble parents, but my dad and mum tried to get her to Sweden, but they didn’t get her as she lives in Finland. I also know that her mother tried this card too, to live with us as a family share our dad, but my mum said that she can only live with us for two weeks and then she has to have found a flat, I understand my mother I wouldn’t wanted to share a home with her as she drank lots and she was not really so nice.

What I know about my sister is that she has brown eyes, and dark hair so she has not got so many things from my dad, well he has darker hair, so strange that I was so blond as I was when I came to the world I am still kinda blond but not as much as I was when I was a kid, I was almost white in the hair. Well apparently she has the same nose as my other sister and mouth when they smile, but I don’t think me and her has anything same, but how would I know I have only seen some pictures of here like four that my parents got when she went to school.

She cut the bands with my dad when she become 18 she never wanted to hear from him again and that is more painful for my dad I think, he knows she is out there but not how she are or lives. I have tried to find her but that is not so easy as I have to use my damn bad finnish to write thing as she lives there but I have not got any results, as I don’t know if she has got married I know her child name. she might has changed everything and I haven’t found her on facebook either or on any page on the web.

I want to find her as she is my sister but mostly for my dad, it would make him the happiest person alive and I love him so much so if I can get him to smile one more time I would do it, as he would smile from happiness and be proud of me and proud of her.