Well I see jealousy as a bad thing because you always want something you can’t get, so for an example you want someone’s boyfriend but you can’t get him. The thing is you should respect the other persons feelings like the other girl in the relationship she doesn’t like that other girls is after her man, lad, husband, boyfriend so whatever you want to call it.
Now to the thing about jealousy I have seen it really close, and it destroys the best people from the inside, why not just try to make things that makes you feel happy? So if someone doesn’t love me then I would think for one week probably oh shite this sucks but then I would try to move on and try to be friends instead and then be happy for the person. I don’t want jealousy to destroy me; I like to be “pure” and not black inside.
Then I got a request from one person that means lots to me as a friend about respect! So I will write my own thoughts about it and it’s not right or wrong! Just my thoughts,
You have to respect yourself before you can respect others, so those people that doesn’t respect for an example that you are in a relationship with a boy doesn’t have self respect and they can’t see what makes the other person happy!
Oh my god I boil of angriness as soon as I think about it mostly because I can place my own feelings in this shite. The worst thing is that I just feel like crying mostly for the people that doesn’t respect me as a human being, they think I don’t get hurt when they try to take what I have, they seem to want to be me stupid jealous bitches as I call them! In my eyes they are less worth then dogs! Wait they are less worth then the pigs… They just try to make the people that is happy miserable.
I know I sound like a girl but guess what I am a girl and I can only see it from the girls eyes, and I know most girls knows what I am speaking about or we can pretend I know what I am talking about.
Mostly I think that jealousy is bad thing because the other person that is it try to control her/his partner do that to max, don’t do that, do that, don’t talk to that one, don’t look at that one! Jeeeeeeez I will just say my boyfriend will always be free to speak to whom he ever want to speak with, hang out with whoever he wants to be with, as long as he respect me as a human and don’t make me look bad or even worse stupid in front of other people.
You can be jealous of the other things that someone else have, like things, doesn’t have to be a person or so.
Well jealousy sucks! People should start to respect more things than they do!
Sunday, 28 November 2010
Idiot!
I have decided that it’s time to clear up something so I have decided that the best thing is to write it in the blog :)
Well I will write about idiots mostly because there are some idiots in my world. So the first thing I did before I will write this blog was to look up what an Idiot is so according to Wikipedia an idiot is:
An idiot, dolt, or dullard is a mentally deficient person, or someone who acts in a self-defeating or significantly counterproductive way. Archaically the word mome has also been used. The synonymous terms moron, imbecile, and cretin have all gained specialized meanings in modern times. An idiot is said to be idiotic, and to suffer from idiocy. A dunce is an idiot who is specifically incapable of learning. An idiot differs from a fool (who is unwise) and an ignoramus (who is uneducated/ an ignorant), neither of which refer to someone with low intelligence.
Then we can start by saying that I have a boy that has asked me several times to get married to him but the thing is that I really don’t love him at all, I love someone else, and lucky me I have him. I would say that that boy is an Idiot because he is doing the same thing over and over again! And he doesn’t learn something from it, how can you be so stupid that you ask someone over and over I will not change please move on!
Then there are girls! Jez I don’t know where to start with them, but mostly they are jealous idiots that talks trash behind your backs :( they don’t care how you feel at all. Well there is always some girl that loves/likes the boy you love, but can’t see that he doesn’t feel the same way. Trust me been there done that so I know more than people think.. well how could I have been jealous of someone else relationship, it’s because I saw that he loved someone else and not me, I was unsure about our friendship he might just have had friend feelings but I loved him.
To prove my point on this I went to Wikipedia I know it’s not a good page but it helps me to find out what I want to prove.
Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship, friendship, or love. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy.
I guess I can be the idiot too, but how the hell can I control someone else thoughts as people seem to tell me that I do!? Jez you can’t control someone’s thoughts it’s the person that do that not someone else!
Then we have the other thing about idiots it’s that they will never learn what’s good for them and there for they destroy good things that other has because they are unsure about their own values and feelings!
I might write more about Idiots and jealousy but I don't know because it's hard to write without naming people
Well I will write about idiots mostly because there are some idiots in my world. So the first thing I did before I will write this blog was to look up what an Idiot is so according to Wikipedia an idiot is:
An idiot, dolt, or dullard is a mentally deficient person, or someone who acts in a self-defeating or significantly counterproductive way. Archaically the word mome has also been used. The synonymous terms moron, imbecile, and cretin have all gained specialized meanings in modern times. An idiot is said to be idiotic, and to suffer from idiocy. A dunce is an idiot who is specifically incapable of learning. An idiot differs from a fool (who is unwise) and an ignoramus (who is uneducated/ an ignorant), neither of which refer to someone with low intelligence.
Then we can start by saying that I have a boy that has asked me several times to get married to him but the thing is that I really don’t love him at all, I love someone else, and lucky me I have him. I would say that that boy is an Idiot because he is doing the same thing over and over again! And he doesn’t learn something from it, how can you be so stupid that you ask someone over and over I will not change please move on!
Then there are girls! Jez I don’t know where to start with them, but mostly they are jealous idiots that talks trash behind your backs :( they don’t care how you feel at all. Well there is always some girl that loves/likes the boy you love, but can’t see that he doesn’t feel the same way. Trust me been there done that so I know more than people think.. well how could I have been jealous of someone else relationship, it’s because I saw that he loved someone else and not me, I was unsure about our friendship he might just have had friend feelings but I loved him.
To prove my point on this I went to Wikipedia I know it’s not a good page but it helps me to find out what I want to prove.
Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship, friendship, or love. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy.
I guess I can be the idiot too, but how the hell can I control someone else thoughts as people seem to tell me that I do!? Jez you can’t control someone’s thoughts it’s the person that do that not someone else!
Then we have the other thing about idiots it’s that they will never learn what’s good for them and there for they destroy good things that other has because they are unsure about their own values and feelings!
I might write more about Idiots and jealousy but I don't know because it's hard to write without naming people
Saturday, 27 November 2010
den stora stygga världen: sanningen - the truth
den stora stygga världen: sanningen - the truth: "Jag hade tänkt reda ut lite saker om mig, jag vet att folk inte bryr sig vem jag är eller så men nu är jag trött på att folk inte känner mig..."
the blond brain how it works.. somehow...
Jag hade tänkt reda ut lite saker om mig, jag vet att folk inte bryr sig vem jag är eller så men nu är jag trött på att folk inte känner mig, och dömer mig för den jag är. Jag hade tänkt skriva detta på engelska så de som inte förstår engelska ledsen!
Here we go, I know this will be many wrongs here but I don't give a shite cause this is the truth about me, myself and my thoughts...
As you all know my name is Johanna Maria Pyykkö, I have always hated my name because I got so much bullied when I was younger for everything. but today it’s really nice to have a name that not so many people has, but I am sick that ADULTS still bullies me because I am who I am. Anyway this will be no name because people that read it will know if it’s them I mean or not!
So now to the things I want to straight out, people don’t think I am shy so now to that part I am really shy. I really don’t talk to many people cause I can’t find the words to talk to new people because of my past. People have always made sure that I have been the outsider, but then I have had some friends that made my world great by just being there for me but they don’t really know how bad I felt, mostly cause I never ever talk about my feeling so whatever, it’s to private to talk about..
People seems to call me a whore but that’s the thing I can actually count on one hand how many people I have had sex with, and I am sick that people tell me other things! Oh yeah we call Johanna a whore cause she has had sex with 3 people -.-‘ that’s not fair and the other thing is that people sees me as a failure cause I have only had one boyfriend in my past! Now to that boyfriend he was shite I can agree on that but if I didn’t have had him I wouldn’t know what I was looking for in a guy so I should really thank him for showing me what I don’t want to have in a guy!
I know people think I am hot and sexy and cute but the thing is that I don’t think that about myself and that’s because it’s a huge issue in my head people told me that I was ugly for so many years that my brain thinks I am that. Nothing wrong with that! Yes it is cause for one time in my life I want to feel beautiful and loved and I do that thanks to one wonderful person that really has taught me what love is about. So I really want to thank him for having the patience with me because I know I am a hard complex person that has hard to speak what I feel really.
Then to the friends, if you are my friend you wouldn’t make me feel bad and say things like, for an example, I don’t get how you can have a boyfriend and have boys after you because I am hotter then you in every way. If you feel like that then don’t tell me because it makes me so sad inside that you that is my friend that tells me that. I wish I could do magic so I can make everyone happy but I can’t, I need to concentrate on myself for once and that person I love! Not on the plague that the friends are somehow..
For once I think I should be happy mostly cause I have never been so happy as I am today and trust me my life sucks basically more than anything I don’t have a work or the brains to get one because I don’t do well with other people mostly cause I have other thoughts then they and think in a different way.
But the thing I never talk about is how I feel, so I will try to tell you all so you don’t have to ask me how I feel and sneak about it! I am scared to death that I need an new operation on the heart and no one really understands how it’s to have the same thought every day I know I am ill I can’t help it if I get a cold that I just want to be in bed because I can’t get up from the bed, I just wish people would think more than they do! They tell me things that make me think more then I should I should try to concentrate on what’s best for me! Then people think somehow that I don’t get hurt I do I am a human for fuck sake! Everyone gets hurt when people are mean to you! I am good at ignoring things but it kills me every time people say something bad, but I also know that I am way better than them mostly because I try to be nice to them even if they hate me or dislike me!
I know for a fact if you want to change your life with me than I would say no because I do love to be myself and have my thoughts, I like math, space, sports, shopping, I love to be blond and blue eyed I love to be the person that doesn’t think too much just to do the things I want to do! I know I analyze things way too much but hey I think everyone would do that if they have been in the same situation that I have been in. I don’t trust in so many people because they always fail to earn the trust by talking trash behind my back.
This is the real Johanna, or maybe just 10 % of her, if you do want to get to know me doesn’t try to be someone you aren’t because that is just wrong!
/ Johanna
Here we go, I know this will be many wrongs here but I don't give a shite cause this is the truth about me, myself and my thoughts...
As you all know my name is Johanna Maria Pyykkö, I have always hated my name because I got so much bullied when I was younger for everything. but today it’s really nice to have a name that not so many people has, but I am sick that ADULTS still bullies me because I am who I am. Anyway this will be no name because people that read it will know if it’s them I mean or not!
So now to the things I want to straight out, people don’t think I am shy so now to that part I am really shy. I really don’t talk to many people cause I can’t find the words to talk to new people because of my past. People have always made sure that I have been the outsider, but then I have had some friends that made my world great by just being there for me but they don’t really know how bad I felt, mostly cause I never ever talk about my feeling so whatever, it’s to private to talk about..
People seems to call me a whore but that’s the thing I can actually count on one hand how many people I have had sex with, and I am sick that people tell me other things! Oh yeah we call Johanna a whore cause she has had sex with 3 people -.-‘ that’s not fair and the other thing is that people sees me as a failure cause I have only had one boyfriend in my past! Now to that boyfriend he was shite I can agree on that but if I didn’t have had him I wouldn’t know what I was looking for in a guy so I should really thank him for showing me what I don’t want to have in a guy!
I know people think I am hot and sexy and cute but the thing is that I don’t think that about myself and that’s because it’s a huge issue in my head people told me that I was ugly for so many years that my brain thinks I am that. Nothing wrong with that! Yes it is cause for one time in my life I want to feel beautiful and loved and I do that thanks to one wonderful person that really has taught me what love is about. So I really want to thank him for having the patience with me because I know I am a hard complex person that has hard to speak what I feel really.
Then to the friends, if you are my friend you wouldn’t make me feel bad and say things like, for an example, I don’t get how you can have a boyfriend and have boys after you because I am hotter then you in every way. If you feel like that then don’t tell me because it makes me so sad inside that you that is my friend that tells me that. I wish I could do magic so I can make everyone happy but I can’t, I need to concentrate on myself for once and that person I love! Not on the plague that the friends are somehow..
For once I think I should be happy mostly cause I have never been so happy as I am today and trust me my life sucks basically more than anything I don’t have a work or the brains to get one because I don’t do well with other people mostly cause I have other thoughts then they and think in a different way.
But the thing I never talk about is how I feel, so I will try to tell you all so you don’t have to ask me how I feel and sneak about it! I am scared to death that I need an new operation on the heart and no one really understands how it’s to have the same thought every day I know I am ill I can’t help it if I get a cold that I just want to be in bed because I can’t get up from the bed, I just wish people would think more than they do! They tell me things that make me think more then I should I should try to concentrate on what’s best for me! Then people think somehow that I don’t get hurt I do I am a human for fuck sake! Everyone gets hurt when people are mean to you! I am good at ignoring things but it kills me every time people say something bad, but I also know that I am way better than them mostly because I try to be nice to them even if they hate me or dislike me!
I know for a fact if you want to change your life with me than I would say no because I do love to be myself and have my thoughts, I like math, space, sports, shopping, I love to be blond and blue eyed I love to be the person that doesn’t think too much just to do the things I want to do! I know I analyze things way too much but hey I think everyone would do that if they have been in the same situation that I have been in. I don’t trust in so many people because they always fail to earn the trust by talking trash behind my back.
This is the real Johanna, or maybe just 10 % of her, if you do want to get to know me doesn’t try to be someone you aren’t because that is just wrong!
/ Johanna
Thursday, 7 October 2010
tankar tror jag..
Ja då har man varit på sjukhuset igen för handen måste säga att man ska nog satsa på att bli läkare med tanke på att det kostar en förmögenhet att åka till dem och de kollar dej i typ 2 min -.-'' SKANDAL säger jag bara... dock fick jag lite goda nyheter ska göra en operation med lokalbedövning xD tydligen läcker min handled ut sin nerv vätska O_o
http://cns.sahlgrenska.gu.se intressant sida att läsa :D
Anyway till andra saker... har kollat lite dokumentärer om väder och lite andra saker :) intressanta saker som alltid :D
sedan har jag fått för mig att jag ska kolla på tredje skiftet (third watch) igen kollade första avsnittet idag måste säga att jag inte kommer i håg det alls :< ovanligt men sant...
Julklappar : mamma ska få en fin tunika tröja hade jag tänkt mig, systerdottern får en te servis tror jag det var, har redan glömt vad jag har köpt.. Jenna min syster kommer jag köpa något som man inte tar upp här eftersom hon kanske läser bloggen.. Pappa kommer la få en tröja eller en film xD budget julklapp till honom haha Jari får en film :P Sedan om Michael kommer jag att köpa något till honom :) får se vad man kan hitta på till honom :)
Annars jag mår utmärkt bra och livet leker
You know you love me Xoxo Johanna
http://cns.sahlgrenska.gu.se intressant sida att läsa :D
Anyway till andra saker... har kollat lite dokumentärer om väder och lite andra saker :) intressanta saker som alltid :D
sedan har jag fått för mig att jag ska kolla på tredje skiftet (third watch) igen kollade första avsnittet idag måste säga att jag inte kommer i håg det alls :< ovanligt men sant...
Julklappar : mamma ska få en fin tunika tröja hade jag tänkt mig, systerdottern får en te servis tror jag det var, har redan glömt vad jag har köpt.. Jenna min syster kommer jag köpa något som man inte tar upp här eftersom hon kanske läser bloggen.. Pappa kommer la få en tröja eller en film xD budget julklapp till honom haha Jari får en film :P Sedan om Michael kommer jag att köpa något till honom :) får se vad man kan hitta på till honom :)
Annars jag mår utmärkt bra och livet leker
You know you love me Xoxo Johanna
Monday, 13 September 2010
Ifk - gais
Kommer att uppdatera den matchen på fb tada Johanna ska på matchen....
Ojaaaaaaaaaa jag har blivit fotbollstokig Tjingeling!
//JJ
Ojaaaaaaaaaa jag har blivit fotbollstokig Tjingeling!
//JJ
Thursday, 2 September 2010
Shit happens
argh! inte för att klaga men mina golv är SNORHALA ramlade förrut :| och självklart tog jag emot med min vänster arm... =/ aja smärta är jag van vid...
lycklig nej önskar sjukvården är bättre...
/J
lycklig nej önskar sjukvården är bättre...
/J
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