My letter to my grandpa..

Dear Grandpa,

This is my letter to you I really want to tell you some things, and I know this is the only way to do it.

So I will write you a letter.

There are no words for how much I miss you, but the missing is never ending, I miss your voice, I miss your smile, I miss your blue eyes, I miss those green pants you always had on you and the t-shirt.

I know you are proud of me, looking down from heaven, probably with a smile as it goes so good for us here down. I wished you could have seen Matilda, Jenna’s kid, she is so beautiful and so fun, she reminds me of Jenna when she was young.

I tend to remember how much I wanted to go to see you, when people said they were going to see you and grandma, I was the person that wanted to go with them as I wanted to see you and be with you, I think I spend lots of times with you when you lived, but you know what, even if I miss you so much there is nothing that compares how much I miss my boyfriend Michael, oh yeah grandpa I have a boyfriend.

Well what can I say about Michael he lives in Liverpool in England, funny enough you where the one that said I was the person that would look for a boy outside from the Scandinavian, you where right grandpa I have someone outside from Scandinavian, and now I want to tell you about him. He makes me smile so much and that is probably the only person that can make me smile as much as you did. He is the one I want to spend my life with; I wish you could be here on earth to see him as he is a wonderful person.

Well now to the missing part, why does it hurt so much to miss him? Is it because I love him, I wish you were here so I could talk with you as I am feeling so lost without him. Grandpa my sweet angel, you were always the person I could talk with but now I can’t talk really with anyone how much it hurts inside me, to miss him, my mind is keeping thinking about his wonderful green eyes, his warm smile, how handsome he is how wonderful he is.

I feel like my heart is broken grandpa, I have never felt like I do, not even when you passed away and then I felt broken like I were a complete mess inside, but now my heart seem to be more broken than ever, when I am with him grandpa I feel complete, why aren’t you here so I can talk to you, I need you, I need to speak with you. I have been trying to talk to my friends about this but they just say I should get over it and forget how I feel. I want to know where my heart went, where it has go, why do I feel heartbroken when I am happy? Grandpa can you answer the questions I have, I feel extremely lost.

Well I hope you will be proud of me forever, and that you will be seeing how happy Michael makes me, and how much I miss him, I dream sweet dreams again, no nightmares.

Oh before I forget I found your wedding photo I will put it up in the bookshelf so I always can see you, how handsome you where my sweet angel, I miss you loads, I hope you have a good time where ever you are now grandpa.

I love you so much Jouni Virtanen, may your soul be in peace.

Love, your granddaughter Johanna that miss you more than she can describe..