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Well I want to talk about something that is bugging me today. I miss old good times, when I didn’t have any problems at all, today I have lot of problems, and my body is in pain in some strange places!

The thing is that we all get stronger by time, and that is true I am much stronger than I was some months ago, I am still the crazy bitch, I like to make fun of myself telling people I am blond, through I am that and don’t get things so easy but I do get when someone hates me, or don’t like me, why can’t I get when someone likes me? Now to the big thing am I afraid to say I love you, No I am not afraid of saying those words to the person I love, but to others I am shit scared of saying them, because they mean so much to me.

I have been thinking of my life what will I do in five years? I think I will be married, and have started an own family on my own, with my husband. I hope that I can be a housewife, and take care of our kids, I would learn them to swim, math, Swedish, English, about space and lots of other things. What can I do to make this happen, well make sure I am happy as I am today, I am so perfectly happy.

One thing I can say about love that I never believed in before you actually know when you have met the right one, you really feel it deep inside, when you kiss each other you get a feeling that you are in the right place in your life.

I got a question from my mate Jonas, what the hardest thing I have ever done in my life I finally know what it is, I will tell you all what it was it was on the day 17:th of April 2011 when I had to leave Michael to get home, I almost cried when I saw what he had written to me in a book, my heart felt like it went to one billion pieces, It did not feel right to leave him, because I have never ever felt so lonely as I felt on the plane, I wanted to cry I wanted to go back, I thought to myself those two hours I was on the plane what the hell am I doing, I am leaving the person I love more than anything. I want to be with him not here where I am now. That has to be the hardest thing I have gone though yet in my life.

Now everyone I want you to keep your thumbs that everything will turn out okay, I don’t really want to have any more complicated things for a while in the future.

Peace out!